Monthly flower and the trouble she brings to me

So from the start of my first period at 12 my crams have been moderately high on the pain spectrum and nothing seemed to subside the pain and all out was just causing more damage for me if I were to want to have kids. now 21 though never been in any form of relationships it's basically all I live for to have one day a husband and kids but lately this year with my panic attacks these crams have become unbearable I have right now taken a pill to just stop the period for today so I can stop crying thank God I still live with my mum so I'm not by my self with it but a friend of hers has just mentioned that I may need to get a camera check for I might have some type of bacteria that is causing my destress and with that I'm gona feel depressed knowing that if this is what it is and it is as bad as it seems I my not be able to have kids and I cry I'm crying knowing that my whole life I have looked forward to the day I may carry my own little me or a little love of my life I know for a fact I will adopt if this is the case but to be a woman for me is this verey thing that might be taken from me in a day I know I'll be strong I just really need to talk about it I'm young I know there is still high chances but my body is so weak to this stuff compared to my mentality I'm strong I know but I am human I'm a weak being and I embrace that but new things keep happening and I'm slowly losing my mind I now ill pull through but will I ever experience they joy of creating live?