I am in the same boat! I make myself absolutely sick with worry by constantly going to Google and searching the same terms over and over again: “pancreatic cancer,” “unexplained weight loss,” “signs I don’t have cancer,” etc. It is exhausting and draining. Knowing my age, lack of risk factors, etc., does not help.
However, other things I have read on line also provide great support, including groups like these. I also had a check up today at my local doctor’s surgery, and had a chance to express what I think are my silly concerns with the nurse. She was compassionate, a good listener, and kindly said, “I really don’t know how else to provide you with reassurance,” explaining in her professional and lovely way, that my “symptoms,” were not indicative of anything morose or evil at all.
I have always had difficulty believing that nothing bad is going to happen. We recently moved, I no longer work outside the home, and my stress levels are considerably diminished. I’m the type, then, who is always waiting for the other show to drop, especially when the stars seem to have aligned in my favor.
I’d love feedback on this!