How can i express my gender in an environment that is not lgbt friedly?

Your safety is always your priority, but you also have the right to express yourself. You can try to find some safe spaces, for examply by surrounding yourself with supportive friends with whom you can be yourself. Or you can reach out to the nearest LGBT group for support. In unfriendly environments, building ourselves a support network is very important to help us finding the strength to be ourselves. If it's still not safe to be completely out, you can express yourself through some outfit details that can connect you with the image of yourself you want.