I like the idea of being gay, it just gives me a rush, but I'm a girl and i like guys but don't really like girls, i don't know what this is or how to deal with it. Can anyone help?

Your orientation is based on the attraction you feel, and if you like guys but not girls, that is who you are. Liking the idea of being gay, but not being attracted by people of the same sex, only makes you curious and supportive about the gay reality, but not gay yourself. That's ok, just follow your heart, do what makes you feel good. You can be part of the LGBT reality as an ally, you can be sure people will appreciate your support a lot!