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JeyImon
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Trauma lead to more trauma?
Trauma Support / by JeyImon
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 September 25th, 2025
...See more I feel like my inability to heal has affected my life dramatically. I was SA as a child. I started drinking and doing drugs as a teen. For a couple of years it was like a vicious cycle. I was drowning my sorrows in drugs and alcohol, and someone would take advantage of me, so I would dive deeper in my addiction. But the further in my addictions I got, the less aware I was and less safe my surroundings became. It was like my unhealthy coping mechanisms were directly putting me in harms way. But the pain and trauma was piling up and I couldn’t handle it sober. I’ve broken the cycle but the damage is done. I’m way more traumatized now bc I didn’t get help and I thought I could party the pain away. And I carry the guilt that it’s all my fault. I guess I’m saying this to say, please get help. Don’t self medicate and try to numb yourself away like I did. It will only lead to more pain. You can’t escape or run from it forever.
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Everyone defends my abuser
Trauma Support / by JeyImon
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 February 10th, 2020
...See more So last year, I went over to a friends house. Ill call him C. And we had been friends for over a year and always had a platonic friendship. Wed hang out often. On this particular day, I was drunk off my ass. I threw up all over myself, he helped get my clothes off, didnt give me other clothes, and layed me in bed. At this point I couldnt walk or speak, only mumble. I have a horrible memory of that night, but I do remember waking up to him on top of me. I couldnt even stay awake. Let me also add I was the only one who drank. So the next morning, its awkward and I leave, and I build the courage to tell 3 close friends who know C as well. We had all worked together. But they all defended him bc at the time he was j fired and lost his car. They justified his actions bc he was going through something and we never spoke about it again. They even would send me back over to his house to pick up something for them or even invite him over while Im over. It was a year ago but I still think about it. Idk if its something I should bring back up, or keep trying to forget.
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Rough sex gone too far?
Trauma Support / by JeyImon
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 January 26th, 2019
...See more So last night I visited my friend who I used to work with. He made me an edible which he said was extra strong and we smoked. We have a lot of sexual history so it wasnt anything when we started having sex. Hes always been rough and Ive always enjoyed it except a few times but it was bc he kept slapping me too hard. I live with my mom so he knows no visible bruises. Anyways last night during sex he was choking me, which was fine, but then he started using both hands and strangled me. I couldnt talk, let alone breathe. I tried pushing him off but hes like a big man.I fought until I passed out. I saw nothing but white and swore I died. I woke back up to him still penetrating me. I was so dizzy and lightheaded from suffocating and the edible. Like I felt myself coming in and out of consciousness. He bruised my face pretty bad which I told him before about. Im just super in shock bc I really thought I was gonna die last night but I dont feel comfortable talking to anyone about this. I dont know if this was a form of rape or just an assault bc I definitely wasnt cool with being strangled to death. And Im pretty sure he took the condom off during sex too. I acted like everything was cool after but my throat is still sore.
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Is This Rape ???
Trauma Support / by JeyImon
Last post
 April 18th, 2017
...See more Okay so about a year ago on my 18th bday i had met this guy who seemed pretty cool . Fast forward to later that night at my hotel party we were alone in the room . He was drunk and I was high . But we were kissing and touching or whatever . We started having sex but it was only my second time so it hurt like bitch . So after a few minutes i changed my mind . i told him to stop . but he didnt . i tried to push him off . but he pushed me down . i repeatedly told him to stop and pushed him . but i was ignored and he continued until he was "done" . Now i know i orignally consented but can i withdraw my consent ? Or am i suppose to just stick it out ? Was that rape or am i just being a little bitch ?
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