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KaiUwU2002
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On the autism spectrum 🌈♾️

Special interests: Cookie Run, Warrior cats, Anime, Art, Animals (living & extinct), Game OSTs

I am here because of needing to navigate through struggles in life, but I'm too financially unstable to afford a therapist.

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Update on my "I hate my home & I feel stuck" rant
General Support / by KaiUwU2002
Last post
 February 25th
...See more My living situation isn't getting any better actually I think it's getting worse my mom hasn't paid the trash bill because my mom rather pay for weed and cigarettes than necessities so now there's trash bags piling up in the back porch and it smells. I wish I could pay for the necessities but I don't have a job and people still don't want to hire me. I've been distancing myself from my mom so there wouldn't be any arguments but I think the lack of socialization and plus the living situation I'm in is starting to make me depressed I just can't believe how incompetent my mom is
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(TW for violence) First severe meltdown in a long time + bad substance experience
Autism Support / by KaiUwU2002
Last post
 February 25th
...See more So this is all from my girlfriend's experience because I don't remember clearly what happened because I tend to blackout when I have a meltdown and on top of me being very stoned it probably was really bad. It was last night and the day before my girlfriend's birthday she had some weed with my mom (weed is legal here in Illinois so it's fine + we're of age) and my girlfriend offered me some weed and I accepted I don't do weed much and she said I took too much and was "greening out". My mom had the munchies for ice cream so she told me to get some Dairy Queen for her, my girlfriend and me and me being very high I accidentally requested it for pickup instead of delivery and we don't have a car. There wasn't anything I could do to get the money back via app so I had to call Dairy Queen myself to get the money back and they said it would take 3 to 4 days to get in my mom's debit card. (I already told you about me and my mom's relationship in and the financial situation in a different forum so of course it's gonna be bad) My mom started to yell at me if Dairy Queen doesn't give her the money back she would "chew my butt out" and that's when my girlfriend told me I broke down. I started to cry and apologize over and my mom started to yell at me more because I was "making her feel bad" & "was embarrassing her in front of my love". My girlfriend took me to my room to calm me down but she told me I was punching myself in my head really hard, I was biting myself and I tried to grab at her and the only thing that got me to calm me down was her getting my dog from the other room to me so my dog can calm me and after that I was fine I watched some videos on my phone and fell asleep. My girlfriend is also worried that I've might've gave myself a concussion because how hard I was hitting my head I have a headache and a bruise to where I was punching and she said it's not a good sign.
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Special interests
Autism Support / by KaiUwU2002
Last post
 February 21st
...See more I'd like to know what are everyone's special interests? I'll go first I have quite a few special interests but my main one is Cookie Run it's a mobile game about sentient cookies that were created by witches. There are many different games for Cookie Run such as Ovenbreak, Kingdom, Witch's Castle & Tower Adventures my favorite one out of them is Kingdom.
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Question about listeners?
Newbie Hub / by KaiUwU2002
Last post
 February 1st
...See more Do listeners get paid to listen to people or is being a listener volunteer work like how you can volunteer to work at an animal shelter? I don't fully understand how being a listener works.
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I hate my home and I feel so stuck (Long rant & TW)
General Support / by KaiUwU2002
Last post
 February 1st
...See more I need to dump everything out of my chest but there's so many different topics that I think that I have to post it here. (Sorry that it's a long one) So first off the basement where I live at is going through ***. The pipe busted in the basement causing flooding down there, the hot water heater doesn't work so I don't have any hot water to bathe with, the sump pump doesn't work so the water doesn't go anywhere but back on the floor when I try to get it sucked up and now starting the day before yesterday because of all the water accumulating down stairs the heater stopped working so I have no heat on top of it being the negatives outside. All of this happened within the span of a few months because my mom wouldn't call a plumber for the busted pipe because it's "too much money" but instead blame this all on my late dad because he didn't update the basement when he was well enough to do so. (My dad had stage 4 lung cancer and passed away almost 5 years ago) I understand that my household is low income because my mom is on SSDI for BPD, PTSD, anxiety & depression and plus I don't have a job (for context: I tried to get jobs in my area but nobody would hire me and I'm assuming it's because I'm autistic.) but I'm pretty sure that calling a plumber to just fix a pipe burst would cost way less than to fix all of the stuff that's happening downstairs right now. Since she's not doing anything about the problem I had to put matters in my own hands (as usual since she doesn't contribute to the household unless it's paying the bills) I emailed multiple plumbers in my area to get quotes but the plumbers won't come here without my mom's consent first since she's the homeowner but she doesn't want to talk to them. The plumbers did tell me that if the price costs a certain amount that they would put us in a financial program I tried to tell my mom that but she wouldn't listen to me on that. Yesterday I had a call with my therapist and I told her everything that was happening in the basement and she gave me a case worker to help me and my mom stay warm during these cold days and to try and help us with our financial struggles but my mom got mad at me and started to yell at me that if the case worker comes to the house they would view her as the caregiver of me and would take me away because they'll think she's making me live in a poor living condition. The thing is I'm not a minor anymore so I'd doubt the case worker would take me away unless I consent to go. It's also ironic that she said they'll view 'her' as my caregiver even though I do everything for her down to making her food and drinks (the only thing she doesn't make me do for her is bathe her thank goodness) even though she knows how to cook, get drinks, do chores, & clean herself and I've seen her do it multiple times. Also years back when my dad passed away and all this didn't happen yet my older sister suggested that she could take over the homeownership for my mom so my mom wouldn't have to burden with the house financials and her husband could fix up the house for her since they're financially stable enough to do so but my mom yelled at my sister that my sister would kick her out of the house and make her homeless to spite her then keep the house for herself and her husband. My mom has always had a grudge on my sister ever since I was young because my sister used to do drugs and steal from my mom but my sister has been sober for years and tried to apologize her many times and tried to make it up to her a lot by giving my mom money for everything she stole from her but my mom never accepted her apology but it's hypocritical because when I was a very young child my mom used to shoplift and she also did drugs but expects everyone to support her because she's also 'sober' (she's not sober she uses my sister's money for marijuana and cigarettes) My mom would start arguments with me through my life on and off multiple times over many things big and small and most of the time it doesn't go anywhere but when I was a teenager it did become physical twice and I had to go to juvenile once because I called the cops on her and my mom was playing the victim and the cops believed her over me because she told them I was having a severe autistic meltdown even though she was the aggressor and I was defending myself but they didn't seem to care to hear my end of the story so the second time she went physical I just let her and didn't call anyone because I didn't want the same instance of me going to juvenile to happen. All of this current and past made me (and still does) want to leave and I tried to move with my sister but my mom found out and went ballistic and started to yell at me that she would disown me, say I would be dead in her eyes, she called me bad names (including slurs) and then wished death on my sister so I would be alone and have nobody to go to. If I tried to move in with my girlfriend she probably would've done the same thing I said above this and plus try to prevent me from my seeing my girlfriend ever again like she does to me with my sister. I've told a listener all this (not naming them to respect their privacy) and they did suggest for me to leave since she's interfering with my life as a young adult but I feel so obligated to stay with her because my dad's dying wish was for us to take care of each other (even though I'm the one taking care of her) and plus if I did actually leave her siblings down in Texas won't take her in because they say how toxic of a person she is and also family on my dad's side don't like her either so they won't take her in either I also don't want to leave my dog behind because that wouldn't be right on him because I doubt she would take care of him properly or she would probably dump him or sell him for money for more cigarettes and weed. I don't really have a good plan right now since I don't have a source of transportation, my state ID expired so I wouldn't be able to try to find a job at the moment (if anyone would hire me that is which I doubt) & I barely have any money in my name because my mom takes my money and she also someway finds my money stashing places. If I tried to move in with my girlfriend or my sister my mom would most likely figure it out and bring me back and start threatening me again. For real I don't know what to do.
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How to find work while being autistic
Autism Support / by KaiUwU2002
Last post
 January 28th
...See more I am an autistic person who tried applying to jobs and every job I applied to they never reply back or if I do get an interview they either A. never update me on my status so I gotta ask them how my status is and they never get back to me or B. Just turn me down from the job shortly after applying. Even something as simple as being a cashier from a grocery store and they still turn me down. I even lied on my applications and resume that I wasn't autistic but when I go to the interview via on the phone or in person it's like the person who I'm interviewing with could tell that there's something wrong with me. I don't know if it's my tone of voice or how I look or whatever that gives it all away but it really makes me feel bad. I could try doing work from home but I don't trust a lot of those working remotely companies I see on Indeed or zip recruiter seem so scammy and I don't know why. For those who are autistic and are employed how did you do it? Am I maybe doing something wrong that nobody's telling me about? Please just someone teach me your ways!
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