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KoalaC
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PathStep 43 Compassion hearts407 Forum posts21 Forum upvotes88 Current upvotes88 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2026 Member sinceNovember 14, 2019
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Friendship and anxiety
Anxiety Support / by KoalaC
Last post
 September 25th, 2025
...See more Hello everyone Have you ever had a friend who gives you mixed signs? I have a friend who is warm and cute and invites me over her house often, but she does mention to me passive-aggressive comments and behaviours in a cute little voice. So I don't know most of the time if something bothered her or it's a joke. She has a complicated life, and somehow, she ends up in complex relationships like partners and other friends in common. I really don't know how to deal with her. Sometimes, I try to support her and be gentle with her, but sometimes I just think to myself... let her act anyway she wants.
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How to heal complex trauma?
Trauma Support / by KoalaC
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 September 12th, 2025
...See more Hello everyone I suffer from complex trauma, it's a long story, but I 'm tired, exhausted, I really want to heal. I have read about so many therapies and methods and still I feel confused, and I will love to know the experience of others, how do real people do heal?
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Why my family treats me like sheep to sacrifice and why I allow them ?
Mindfulness Center / by KoalaC
Last post
 September 10th, 2025
...See more I have always been the different one, the one that doesn't like gossip, the nerd, the naive one, the last one to know, the outsider, the one that is criticised. My mom was the teenager mom, so I was the consequence. Maybe... well I don't know how to describe it, but maybe I grew up with that discourse on the back of my head, like the reminder of the problem and somehow I became a people pleaser. Now I'm not comfortable around my family. When my grandpa was alive, he treated me like a daughter, after all my parents were very young and they didn't have the maturity to raise me, but for my aunts, I always felt that they wanted to make me feel in a lower position in comparison to them. But I was a child so I was too naive, I kinda interiorized. My mom got sick with neurodegenerative illness, she lives in a special care home and my father he is a cover narcisistic and I struggle to relate with people, no friends, no partner, my childhood wasn't the best, mom was violent, it's related to her illness, and my father used to leave me alone with her every time they fought It was painful physically and mentally. So It was very often that I scaped from parents house to grandparents house. Now that I'm old it's like my brain is still looking for a safe environment but grandpa it's gone and my aunts and my grandma treat me like I owe them. I feel lonely, and in alert all the time. It's exhausting cause I know that I'm very sensitive but I also that it's not my imagination, I know that they talk trash about me, even though that left me alone for many years dealing with my mom's illness until It was impossible to handle without medical assistance 24/7, even in those moments they used to say that I provoke my mom's reaction.
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Narcisist father
Mindfulness Center / by KoalaC
Last post
 June 30th, 2025
...See more I'm sorry but I must say it... I hate my father. He doesn't respect me at all, he seems to be sweet but I reality he just manipulates everyone about him. He knows the damage that he does still he is very smart to get away without consequences, he is also very clever to look like the victim always.
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Loneliness and depression
Depression Support / by KoalaC
Last post
 May 1st, 2025
...See more I'm always lonely, I struggle to make friends and to adjust to environment with lots of people like jobs. In a few days I'm turning 36 in a few days, I quicked a job a few days ago, still I'm having trouble to finish my thesis and still have no idea what to do with my life.
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