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August 4th

My standpoint on religion

General Support / by alex1srenee

April 18th

...See more i respect all religions and think they serve meaningful purposes in society, but i would personally describe myself as agnostic. i don’t believe that anything like a soul transcends beyond death. the idea of not existing after death is something i can really understand because i believe that when i die, there’s nothing. i also struggle with the concept of ***; i think it’s often used to scare people into behaving correctly, which means people are doing the right things, but for the wrong reason. i physically can’t believe in god, so it’s frustrating when people tell me i will go to *** for not believing in jesus. the way my mind works, i have to reason that something exists and can’t disprove it in order to believe it. i wish i could believe, and i’m jealous of those who can have faith without physical or reasonable proof. the bible has been translated so many times that it’s hard for me to trust that jesus’s original words exist today. i also find it difficult to have conversations with people who try to prove god exists using the bible, because that’s a circular argument, telling a nonbeliever that your religious text proves your religion is illogical, because if i don’t believe in your religion, i therefore don’t believe in your religious text. another reason i struggle with belief is suffering. if a god is truly all-powerful and all-good, i struggle to understand why we go through so much pain. i can’t get past the thought of reasoning that someone who does nothing wrong could die. if god is all powerful and all good then he could just step in but chooses not to. you could say free will, but god is all powerful, all knowing, all good so he could stop that. i also think religion is human made, which is a big reason i struggle with belief. i understand why early humans created religion, they needed ways to explain the world around them when they lacked scientific and generational knowledge. having a god to turn to for answers can provide comfort. but, as history has shown, many things that were once thought to be “god’s work” are now explainable through science. i also feel that attributing all good things to god can take away from the personal effort and growth humans put in to achieve success. for example, if you train and run a marathon, you deserve to thank yourself for the practice, effort, and time it took, not just god. at the same time, i think religion serves a genuine purpose; it gives people hope and something to look up to. i just don’t think it’s the path for me personally. on a scientific and philosophical level, i don’t think the idea that “every creation needs a creator” is necessarily logical. in daily life, we usually observe matter and energy changing form, not things appearing from absolute nothing. we also don’t know whether the same rules of cause and effect apply outside space, time, and physics, because that hasn’t been proven. that’s why the big bang theory makes sense to me; it explains that the universe was once extremely hot, dense, and in an early tiny state, and then space itself began expanding. some people believe god caused that process, which is why they see god and the big bang as compatible, but claiming “everything needs a creator” is still a circular argument, because then i could just ask, who created god?

Lost in life

General Support / by alex1srenee

April 6th

...See more well my life is going bad again i guess. i ruined a talking stage i had with a guy because im dumb and i was moving too fast. he said i was saying bf and gf type of things, which not gonna lie i was. and i even noticed i was and took a step back, but it was too late. he was also kinda doing the same thing but mine was worse. he ultimately blocked me and didnt say anything. i had him on my other account and built up the courage 2 days later (aka today) to send a voice note and respectfully ask why he blocked me and apologizing for anything i may have did wrong. he said i was moving too fast and him and his friends thought it was best if we stopped talking. i was chasing the closure so im glad he answered because i thought he wouldn’t. i’m very emotionally mature and like to take these things as learning experiences, but it still hurts. i messed it up. i moved to fast which caused us to stop talking. also not too mention summer is coming up. i basically have no friends, i have nothing that great to look forward to, and it’s gonna be like last summer all over again. last summer was definetly one of the worst times of my life. but now it’s even worse bc my 2 bsfs r moving they are twins, ngl i haven’t even liked them anyways because they are bad people but still. i have literally no one. no job yet. i don’t even know it’s just a lot rn and im just so lost. i miss the guy i was talking to and wish i could undo it but all i can do is grow from it.

Life.

General Support / by alex1srenee

February 22nd

...See more I didn’t really think I would be on here again. I mean I thought my life would finally get better again. I guess i’m gonna rant and you can read if you want. Hi my name is Alexis. For my whole life i’ve either struggled with bullying or mental health. it’s sad to know how many people don’t like me. i walk into school and people look at me like im different or im a freak. but i’m really a human just like them. i want to have fun just like them, go out with my friends every weekend, be invited to parties, etc. but that really hasn’t happened for me. my high school years have been so *** so far. i’m a sophomore and the beginning of my freshman year i was just bullied and i got leaked eventually by a boy i trusted. but after that people always started to just make fun of me in general. i get it im not the prettiest high school girl, but im normal too. i laugh, i cry, i like having fun, im normal just like them. but why do i get treated differently? why did i get brought into this life to life it like this. my best friends of 6 years (2 of them they are twins) are moving in 6 months. it will be the hardest goodbye of my life. so what’s next for me? what do i even do? how do i start over if i haven’t even started? ya sure i have 2 friends but they dont even show there care for me really. im always the one reaching out or trying to hang out. the only thing keeping me going is the thought of having children one day. i want to give them the most amazing life ever and the life i never had. my parents both have never really been that big of a part in my life. when i was younger they were. above the age of 10 i never ever remeber feeling love from them. they always fought and me and my siblings always heard. they eventually divorced 3 years ago. i hate my home life so much. my mom is kind of an alcoholic and she’s so annoying when drunk and my dad i don’t talk to him rly bc we have issues. my mom never got shown love as a kid so she doesn’t show it to us. i don’t remeber the last time my mom ever said she loved me or hugged me or even asked me to go out with her. she’s a single mom and works her a** off but also she doesn’t rly give a f abt what i do. i can literally go anywhere and she doesn’t care as long as i can get home. i like the freedom but also she never seems concerned. i just want to be loved by my parents and its so hard. we dont eat dinner together all my siblings and my mom eat separately in our rooms. i feel like i just live here bc i have to atp. my mom is bipolar so i dont like talking to her bc she snaps sometimes. i have some good nights when im with my best friends but also i wish i had a bf again. having a bf has helped me many times bc i get love and i never do from anyone else in my life. well actually all my ex bfs ended up being horrible. me and my ex broke up last week bc i found out he murdered 2 ppl. ya i know it’s crazy. i have trauma from it and i am getting him in jail for life and i heard all the details abt all it bc he confessed it to me and im so traumatized. i spent hours and days jus sitting in my bed looking for the case abt the 2 murders. i was so obsessed with bringing the family’s of the ppl killed justice. i care about people so so much way more than myself. i work in child care because i want to be a teacher so ya all i do is care abt other people and try to make others happy. if you made it to the end here thank you so much for listening to my random story lol but ya that’s basically my life on blast

Boy problems

Relationship Stress / by alex1srenee

November 9th, 2025

...See more so i had a boyfriend for almost 8 months. broke up w him 3 months in because he was lying to me and we got back tg a day later. the relationship already was kinda toxic. i forgave him and it started getting better but then every single day i was still begging for the bare minimum and for him to care and pay attention to me. so 2 weeks ago i finally broke up w him bc i had enough and wanted more. so during the relationship he had a friend who i knew proably liked me. well after me and my ex broke up his friend hit me up and wanted to hang out. so we hung out yesterday and needless to say we cuddled and made out like 2 times. i feel horrible and me and him are both keeping it a secret bc it will f up there friendship and cause a ton of problems bc my bsf also talked to his friend before that i just hung out w and they kissed but she didn’t like him so they stopped talking so ik she wouldn’t care if i told her. but i feel guilty abt it because i don’t think i rly like him. and i am not ever gonna tell me ex but i feel so messed up. like am i really f’d up for what i did because i think i don’t wanna talk to him again bc i don’t feel the best abt everything. also one of the guys i dated in 7th grade which was a long time ago lowkey admitted he had feelings for me and he’s planning on taking me to lunch today and he’s very sweet. and im not tryna be a player at all but i feel like there’s so many different ppl coming in my life at once that im getting so confused and i feel bad for talking to anyone 2 weeks after my relationship

sleep consumes me

Anxiety Support / by alex1srenee

October 1st, 2025

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