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duckylistens37
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PathStep 39 Compassion hearts164 Forum posts14 Forum upvotes44 Current upvotes44 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2026 Member sinceAugust 26, 2024
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The Life
Poetry / by duckylistens37
Last post
 July 7th
...See more I wish the people could understand.  Understand what it’s like to be me But I wouldn’t wish that pain upon someone  Because they would never really be free I can’t eat or sleep no matter what I try Nothing makes me happy or brings me joy And I don’t wish for anyone to feel this way But they treat my emotions like a toy They treat me like I am broken Like one bad word will send me out of control So they walk on eggshells when I’m around Like keeping me happy is their goal But I’d be happy if I was treated normal  I am more than my mental health And I wish I could be like them Having a happy life is the real wealth 
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Sketch: “Everything is Fine”
Arts & Crafts / by duckylistens37
Last post
 July 31st
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TW Please let it stop
Poetry / by duckylistens37
Last post
 June 20th
...See more I just want it to stop But it won’t Because the world keeps spinning even when you can’t move Because life has to go on even though yours couldn’t  I just want it to stop But it won’t Because the water still waves if you dr*wn And the bridge still stands even if you jump I just want it to stop But it won’t Because once the candle melts, it can’t be lit again Because once you choose to do it, you can’t be brought back to life I just want it to stop But it won’t Because the kn*fe can be cleaned but your arms can’t  Because the rope doesn’t get punished for holding you up I just want it to stop But it won’t  Because even though you’re gone, I’m still here Because even though I’m alive, I’m not actually living  I just want it to stop But it won’t and never will Because no begging, or crying, or screaming can ever bring you back And I’ll never forgive myself for that
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ARFID
Eating Disorder Support / by duckylistens37
Last post
 June 20th
...See more Hello. I have ARFID which stands for avoidant restrictive food intake disorder. I don’t want to eat, I’m scared to eat because I’m scared I will choke or get sick, and I struggle with the way a food tastes or smells or looks.  I recently lost too much weight and my doctor is considering sending me to the hospital but I’m scared because I’m worried they are going to put an NG tube in me if I don’t eat there which I know I won’t. Does anyone have advice on how to make eating easier or can they tell me what it was like going to the hospital for an eating disorder and having an NG tube? Any information would be helpful. I’m just so scared and want to get better.  I hope that everyone struggling with an eating disorder knows that there is help out there and you are all strong and beautiful and can get through this ❤️‍🩹
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Finally learned how to draw people!
Arts & Crafts / by duckylistens37
Last post
 December 21st, 2025
...See more I don’t know why the picture is sideways but I’m still proud of it!
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Poetry ❤️
Poetry / by duckylistens37
Last post
 November 26th, 2025
...See more TW - emotional, talks about guilt and the *** of a close friend of mine I swear I’m trying This fear controls my life I can’t eat, think, or sleep It’s like I’m not really living My thoughts have gotten too deep I feel sick all the time I’m sick of feeling this way  I get sick to my stomach And all I can do is pray Every meal is a battle I don’t know if I’ll make it out alive I don’t know if I want to But I’m trying to survive No one knows what it’s like But I can’t explain it or I’ll cry Because it will make me start to panic And I’ll feel like I’m going to d!e I lie and tell people I’m fine It’s easier than admitting I need help But the truth is, I do I really hate myself I want to be normal To live one day without fear To not deal with the panic And for my thoughts to be clear My emotions betray me My thoughts are paralyzing  Like I’m trapped in my own mind My feelings are demoralizing  I try my best to control it But hearing that word causes dread Because I don’t know what I would do I’d almost prefer to be dead I just want to be okay And sleep without those dreams The ones where I couldn’t save her They make me want to scream I don’t know what’s wrong with me I mean, I do, but I don’t know why “Can’t you just be normal?” I wish I could; I’ll try The worst part is that it’s my fault I deserve to suffer, to be in pain Because I brought this on myself I guess I’m just insane I really don’t want to d!e And I don’t want to be scared  But I just can’t control it  I need to be repaired I want to be okay again Please just let me be okay Will I ever be okay? I don’t know.
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Drawing - “Hiding my Hurt”
Arts & Crafts / by duckylistens37
Last post
 December 15th, 2025
...See more I drew this to show how I feel on the inside
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What hurts the most
Poetry / by duckylistens37
Last post
 June 19th, 2025
...See more What hurts me isn’t the yelling It’s the silence that I never hear What hurts me isn’t your violence Its that people expect me to persevere Treat me like the human I am Please stop, don’t shout I’m not some kid you have to watch Please don’t kick me out  But what truly hurts the most Is that I thought you loved me But it turns out it was fake Now you need to set me free
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