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fairmindedPapaya4898
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Anxiety
Anxiety Support / by fairmindedPapaya4898
Last post
 June 5th, 2025
...See more Why does my anxiety get so bad I feel like I'm out of breath and freak out I can't do it anymore it's all because I quit vaping and I've been getting more emotional I try the what I can see smell touch things but it doesn't help at all I just need more Ideas to help me calm down
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HELP ME IM SO TIRED OF THIS
Addiction Support / by fairmindedPapaya4898
Last post
 May 5th, 2025
...See more so I'm 13 my birthday is In 3 weeks and I've been vaping for 3-4 months I haven't vaped since Friday it's Monday now my nicotine withdrawals are so bad I'm dizzy my head's pulsing my chest is tight I feel like I'm literally *** dying but like ik I have to quit because it's bad for me I only used to vape to get over my toxic 19 year old ex ik we shouldn't have dated and it's my own fault but he's gone now so it's time for the vaping to go but why are the first 3 days the absolute worse I actually can't take any medication because they don't have *** for that I have to get over it myself because my body isn't used to not having nicotine but I wish it would go away
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I don't know what to do
Depression Support / by fairmindedPapaya4898
Last post
 May 30th, 2025
...See more So yesterday I've been getting panic attacks and blurry vision and now I'm finding it hard to breath it feels like I'm dying I told my dad he's gonna wait until 8 for my mother to come home so they can discuss if I should go to the hospital I just feel so sad and I have no one to talk to
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What do I do
Depression Support / by fairmindedPapaya4898
Last post
 April 24th, 2025
...See more faked my Identity to talk to this older guy because I had no friends and I felt alone all the time me and my best friend at the time used to do it together it was our way to do something fun because we felt that you can be anything anyone you like online because we won't ever see them in real life that's just how we thought of it so this guy we we're talking for a bit and I left him because I knew it was wrong and I should do this I felt bad for how I was lying to him and he didn't deserve it so about a month ago I left him I said I'm a bad person im not who he thinks I am and I apologise for misleading him and I wish him the best then I blocked him yesterday I was minding my own business and I was thinking about him less and living my life until I saw that he messaged me my heart dropped because I thought he was moving on so he said something like U lied about everything thank you for that and I just said sorry again and blocked him off everything now I can't even live with myself I feel so bad for lying to him but I think I was right to realise I was wrong and left him he couldn't even get with me because I'm too young for him I've literally just turned a teen and I'm already *** up my life I can't sleep at night all I think about is what he said to me I wish I never did it I just need tips on how to move on with my life and never do it again I don't wish what I did to anyone or him ik what I did was very bad but I had a reason for it and I *** up bad and I'm never gonna let myself do this to anyone again
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Am I crazy
Depression Support / by fairmindedPapaya4898
Last post
 April 20th, 2025
...See more So I'm 13 I've been with a guy that's turning 20 soon we broken up about a month ago I broke up with him because he was getting rude and he was saying inappropriate things to me and about my family I didn't miss him at first but after I saw a picture of him I broke down Imiss him so much even though he's a *** and treated me badly but sometimes he was sweet to me he convinced me that he loved me he always told me he loved me I just can't live without him but I miss him so much I just want him to hold me I was gonna text him but I stopped myself because it would get his hopes up he's said and done rude things to me idk why I miss him
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Relationship
Journals & Diaries / by fairmindedPapaya4898
Last post
 March 21st, 2025
...See more So I broke up with this guy a few weeks ago and it didn't hurt me when I did it I felt relieved but for some reason now I'm starting to miss the bound we had before he ruined it all and acted different he didn't make time for me anymore and I would always wait for his text he would also make me uncomfortable because he would look at other girls In a lustful way and he would even let me have any guy friends or talk to any unless it was my father or brothers but when we started dating he was different and carded for me but at the end he treated me like *** and keep in mind I'm 14 and he's 19 he took advantage of me and ruined my innocence every movie we watched it would always be naked girls he would always ask me for pictures even though he was gonna look at other girls anyway I hate him for what he did to me I can't even look at another couple without feeling disgusted when's someone mentions sex or anything like that I feel uncomfortable now there's so much more he did but why do I miss him now and I need tips and advice on how to let go of him for good it was long distance I knew it would last but it felt nice for a while I feel like I'm permanently traumatised by or relationship but I still miss the good things
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I can't do this anymore
Depression Support / by fairmindedPapaya4898
Last post
 February 27th, 2025
...See more I found out my bf watches other girls naked he was already giving weird signs it been a year if been w him and it just really messed me up and hurt but he's blocked it off his phone but I still care ever since I found out last night ive been crying all day it made me question if I'm good enough what if he uses me and I think he just lusts me and doesn't love me I'm breaking up with him next week but I'm just so sad and lonely I barely have friends to talk to and I hate the feeling of feeling like *** it really bothers me and I think I'm scared it will never go away
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I can do this anymore
Depression Support / by fairmindedPapaya4898
Last post
 February 19th, 2025
...See more Hi I'm a young teen going through a hard time I've had a boyfriend for a year now I found out he looks at naked girls online and I thought he was different now I feel uncomfortable talking to him he would also make inappropriate jokes about people I know I'm planning on break up with him sometime this month because I'm also struggling with my mental health and insecurities there's just so much going on I can't stop crying I need some friends to vent to together and support eachother I just want to make some New friends because I'm all alone
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