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patientLion707
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Hollow
50 & Over Community / by patientLion707
Last post
 1 day ago
...See more I feel hollow, numb and empty. I hide and cry a lot when I am alone or when my foster mom is sleeping. . I'm jealous and envious of the youth, people that seem to enjoy living and are "alive", people with families and friends, etc people in relationships regardless of how the dynamics are, people who have the presence of someone, etc... I am not aging well, I've never had a good life..nothing but a life full of hurt and trauma ..my internal deep wounds are surfacing more and taking a toll on my physical. I'm ugly, old, some missing teeth, wrinkles, scars and wounds all over my body, saggy thinner skin, missing thinner hair, scawl lines, mouth pulled almost permanently into a sad clown position, etc .. I have no life, no genuine loved ones, sickly, forever unemployed, etc ... I am in my 40's and have never looked nor aged youthful ..now it's over . I really hope that I can find enough distractions to numb me untill It is my time...
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Hollow
35 & Over Community / by patientLion707
Last post
 23 hours ago
...See more I feel hollow, numb and empty. I hide and cry a lot when I am alone or when my foster mom is sleeping. . I'm jealous and envious of the youth, people that seem to enjoy living and are "alive", people with families and friends, etc people in relationships regardless of how the dynamics are, people who have the presence of someone, etc... I am not aging well, I've never had a good life..nothing but a life full of hurt and trauma ..my internal deep wounds are surfacing more and taking a toll on my physical. I'm ugly, old, some missing teeth, wrinkles, scars and wounds all over my body, saggy thinner skin, missing thinner hair, scawl lines, mouth pulled almost permanently into a sad clown position, etc .. I have no life, no genuine loved ones, sickly, forever unemployed, etc ... I am in my 40's and have never looked nor aged youthful ..now it's over . I really hope that I can find enough distractions to numb me untill It is my time...
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Nothing left
35 & Over Community / by patientLion707
Last post
 August 16th
...See more In my 40's had a deeply traumatic life that will forever be embedded inside of me and always front and center of everything..and will always haunt me. I've been through soo much trauma, exclusion, isolation, abuse of many kinds, being unloved, being uncared for, etc ... That there's nothing left. There's just nothing left of me. I have nothing left of me to give. Not even to myself. I just mope around all day lost In trauma and in my head and doomscrolling trying to distract myself and stop from feeling.. nothing ever works. I'm forever unemployed and can never work, friendless, no boyfriend/girlfriend, no family, I am confined to the house don't like being outside, don't like being around people nor interacting much, inside 24/7. .had PTSD and anxieties my whole life, body is giving out, in poor health, watching the non losers and world go by from a window... I'm exhausted by life and existence. There's nothing left..there never was anything
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Nothing..
Depression Support / by patientLion707
Last post
 August 5th
...See more In my 40's had a deeply traumatic life that will forever be embedded inside of me and always front and center of everything..and will always haunt me. I've been through soo much trauma, exclusion, isolation, abuse of many kinds, being unloved, being uncared for, etc ... That there's nothing left. There's just nothing left of me. I have nothing left of me to give. Not even to myself. I just mope around all day lost In trauma and in my head and doomscrolling trying to distract myself and stop from feeling.. nothing ever works. I'm forever unemployed and can never work, friendless, no boyfriend/girlfriend, no family, I am confined to the house don't like being outside, don't like being around people nor interacting much, inside 24/7. .had PTSD and anxieties my whole life, body is giving out, in poor health, watching the non losers and world go by from a window... I'm exhausted by life and existence. There's nothing left..there never was anything
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