Just be normal? Why didn’t I think of that?!
If anyone wants to stick around after the show we can break down the meanings and reasons we feel as tho caused things to unfold as the did. But first I have a problem I don’t have time to paint a back story but I need to find a place to live in 6 days or I’m homeless, I already haven’t seen my son in two years (even tho I have legal joint unenforced custody) and I struggle with that and being homeless doesn’t scare me not having my little girls every weekend in these hard times that are being unreasonably cruel, with this inconceivable reality of being alone with no one helping me. And not that I give to get but I’ve given so much to so many for so long that it doesn’t make sense how or why no one is willing to help and the two people I asked for helps response is definitely going to change me when I have to process could be traumatized by it could be something that makes me refuse to lose ever again idk yet but what I do know is I and tired of failing I’m tired of trying so incredibly hard and the can do will to no quit attitude just ain’t enough in my situation please help me build a course of action that works with my reality and unless absolutely necessary put me and my girls together on weekends without me having to swallow a hard truth like I have to not show up for awhile in order to show up for good. I swear I’m so over being so helpless to defend myself and to “deserve” the rite to be a father. Or else and try regulating them emotions in a healthy manner when the people dehumanizing you litterally are where they’re at because of me and have what they have because of me. And the god damn audacity is like a bulls hatred towards me teredos painfully red weapon of mass disrespectfully using information to attack me and make sure it’s personal. On 115 degree day after you get your fuckimg ball crushed by some *** smacking them with a rubber band because if you poke a bear enough time everyone knows the bear clearly deserves to die for biting you like a bear would because he’s a *** bear…. What’s happening to sucks but what’s happening to men I’m sorry but I pray every currupy judge that makes profitable choices deserves suffering for willingly be okay with to hurt a child like so
@curtreed
I can tell how much your children mean to you and how much their sense of security, wellbeing, and happiness matter to you. I'm also hearing that you've often looked out for others and that, while you don't do it out of the expectation to receive it as well, I can imagine your dismay when there was nowhere to turn in your hour of need. 🌼
To experience the grief of going without being able to bond with your son for 2 years must have been absolutely devastating to process - and now, it makes sense that even the thought of losing your weekends with the girls would be so excruciating to your spirit. Seeking support was incredibly wise. Thank you for not trying to bottle all of this up. Your girls, and your son, need you in their life and to overcome these obstacles in their honor, for all of your sakes. You seem like the kind of person who could make it happen, too. 🌺
Through your words, I can sense the depth of your heart and I hope sincerely that your grace and patience continue to keep you in all ways throughout this tremendously painful part of your journey.
We are here for you, keep us updated. May all good things align for you in perfect timing, Curtreed.