Iam a toxic person and i hate myself
I realized how toxic I am, and I hate myself for it
I’ve ruined friendships, relationships and ran people away from me due to my toxic tongue. Sometimes it’ll be justifiable to feel upset in some of those situations but I would OVERREACT and continue arguing for hours and even days. Once I realized how I treat people, I became even more depressed. I want to be better and do better. I’m trying everyday to change and dig deep on why I acted that way. But I can’t help but feel guilty for everything and crying my eyes out. I’ve tried apologizing but I was still cut off but a few, others still stayed friends with me. I’m glad they stayed but I get sad because they didn’t deserve my toxicness and I don’t want to ever do that again to anybody.
@lonely4444 Digging deep within yourself to understand what's going on, and trying to change, are tough to do on your own. I'm wondering, is there any possibility of getting professional help to make it easier, like from your doctor or a therapist?
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In my area its expensive and im jobless
@lonely4444 I lash out at times too. i think the first step is acknowledging the undesired behavior and trying to make amends. Sounds like you ar eon the right track. Prayers and positive vibes are being sent your way.
Thank you
First step to any change is awareness so congratulations on already being so aware of yourself and the impact you may have on others. Please be kind for yourself - very few people set out to hurt others intentionally. “Hurt people hurt people” so try to identify what drives your behaviour. What underlying need/want do you have that might not be being met. Rather than beating yourself up, see this as an opportunity. Get to know yourself. Do the work on yourself and make small changes and choices. There will be many mistakes, and many restarts but as long as there is a direction of progress and growth, that’s all that matters x
"TOXIC" is a big word. IT MEANS THAT YOU ARE HARMFUL TO PEOPLE. Why do you think toxicity is within,it could be possible that you're situations are toxic like mine and it could be that the people around you are toxic.
Don't think that its all your fault. It is always NOT YOU,YOURSELF who is wrong dear! Please be positive, please see the positive sides first.
You know once upon a time,I also felt like ITS ME< I AM THE PROBLEM.
But later on I realized no, it were the situations and the people around me (the immature ppl) who blamed me for no reason. I have a beautiful aura and the thing I need right now to do is to believe in myself that there's nothing wrong with me,IT'S WITH THE TOXIC,HE-LLA TOXIC PPL. And I started keeping a distance from them. Honestly my parents are also toxic: )
But I only know how i am surviving 😭
But anywys,you've got a good amount of people to be there for you so trust yourself and trust them .DON"T OVERTHINK and YOU"LL SLAY IT <3
Thank you
Well acknowledging is the first step. Then you’re not born toxic you’ve become toxic. Maybe from your family, childhood, relationships, or more. If you wanna stop being like this you have to start analysing yourself. What kind of toxicity you’re talking about? Violence? Passive agressive? Frustration? Not listening? feeling not listened?
we all have emotions. How do you regulate those emotions? How do you express sadness, anger or joy. Toxic people are toxic with 1) their opinions. Mostly wrong, and backlash in their life or 2) their poor communication skills. Emotional immaturity. No self regulation.
For the first one nobody can help you. You can’t change until you understand your opinions are toxic. And the second it’s never too late to understand and manage better your emotions and how you choose to express them.
Try talking to listeners as a member and see how you behave, if you can keep conversations, or if people don't want to talk to you because you are toxic. Be aware of how you are and change yourself when talking to the next listener, creating awareness is a big step, good luck