Climbing Up The Hill
TW: Death and Dying
It is getting very real.
Last night I was up to try to cook and my husband was, turn the stove off leave everything else go back to bed immediately.
I had been hit by a big wave of dizziness and nausea. I have been sleeping sleeping sleeping.
I got up later finished the job the dishes are still in the sink normally they would be done by now.
My beloved husband is unable to physically assist me; he does everything he CAN do and I am so grateful for that, and him!!!
I am reaching out; I have strongly self-advocated and thereby burnt some bridges. She torches orgs who wrong her is now my reputation. And the orgs DID seriously wrong me; I contacted appropriate authorities. They wronged me by refusing to provide services without cause. I took correct steps; now nobody is standing in line eager to help.
We are told to contact authorities with problems; I have reaped many amazing benefits doing stuff the long slow legal way. There are downsides to it especially in a small town.
I just know time is growing shorter I don't seem to have any control about this.
https://youtu.be/z7xPjk1ldjg
@RogueOne1983
Biggest of hugs to you !! 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Soo glad you found 7 cups for support! So sorry you are struggling more now …. Is there anywhere to go for extra assistance doctors, family or friends ??
Rest and don’t over due daily. Sending you positive healing vibes and courage across the miles 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
@SunShineAlwaysGrateful thanks yes God has provided some help.
I am just treating symptoms at this point. And praying day and night.
Appreciate you!!
@RogueOne1983
Appreciate you right back at you 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗💕💕💕💕💕💕💕🤗🤗🤗🤗
@RogueOne1983
So glad you are here. You are not alone!
So sorry to hear you are struggling, I know the feeling with trying to do things as we are supposed to and it turns out to be a long long process.
Hang in there, we are here for you. Is there any agencies, doctors, family, or friends to call on?
@Barltik2065 I have contacts in a couple of agencies and I called them. Some help from church.
Leaving doc alone we are both tired and discouraged; she writes referrals they go wrong. Sends me for tests they output fake garbage or withhold results. She has other patients we all need a break!
Good music sometimes makes things more bearable. Sleep may be a refuge. Capsizing into the world has its charm.
I'm sending you this painting just because.
@VioletVeritas that's beautiful I love it!!! Thanks!!
@RogueOne1983
Here's a song you might like: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7_al3uciVc
Cactus suaviza mis yemas con su piel
Tiene cien años, solo florece una vez
En tu nombre, en tu nombre
Y tiene un veneno, mas amargo que la hiel
Con solo invocarte, voy a convertirlo en miel
En tu nombre, en tu nombre
Cuando te busco
No hay sitio en donde no estés
Y los médanos, serán témpanos
En el vértigo, de la eternidad
Y los pájaros, serán árboles
En lo idéntico, de la soledad
En tu nombre, en tu nombre
Y cuando te busco
No hay sitio en donde no estés
Y los médanos, serán témpanos
En el vértigo, de la eternidad
Y los pájaros, serán árboles
En lo idéntico, de la soledad
En tu nombre, en tu nombre
Translation:
Cactus softens my fingertips with its skin
It is a hundred years old, it only blooms once
in your name, in your name
And it has a poison, more bitter than bile
Just by invoking you, I'm going to turn it into honey
in your name, in your name
when i look for you
There is no place where you are not
And the dunes will be icebergs
In the vertigo, of eternity
And the birds will be trees
In the identical, of loneliness
in your name, in your name
and when i look for you
There is no place where you are not
And the dunes will be icebergs
In the vertigo, of eternity
And the birds will be trees
In the identical, of loneliness
in your name, in your name
@VioletVeritas that was beautiful. Added to my playlists thank you!!!
@RogueOne1983
You are in my prayers. Sitting here with you❤️🙏🏽
