Porn addiction
Ever since I can remember, Im 66 now, I've been addicted to porn. It started with magazines for about 10 years. I was a Virginia till I was 20 or 21. I didn't have my driver's license until I was 22. When I lost my virginity I was like a rabbit everyday sometimes twice a day porn wasn't around at those moments. I didn't use it then. I didn't need to? It really got bad when I got married. After our first child, my wife wasn't interested in sex at all. It was a daily habit. Early morning to start my day, then I would wait 3 days cause that's when I would build it back up. I never thought that there was any problem with this. Except to say that I wouldn't jo cause I wanted to save it for my wife. Felt I was cheating on her. I was "caught" by my first wife and I got no reaction or ramifications from her. I was doing it cause she wouldn't give it to me, I would say to myself.
My habit got so bad, to me, that is, that I would get sore and almost skin burns from it.
Still I didn't realize it was a problem, or addiction. I figured that if I had someone in my life that it would stop. It didn't. My third wife, caught me on several occasions. Threatening to leave me. She came really close twice, maybe even 3.
The last time I got caught was about 8 days ago. I told her that my games didn't have anything to do with my feelings for her. She's the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. Needless to say, ive been obstinate for
5 days. I came across this site and decided to let it out. It's been on my mind how hurt and and angry my wife is at me. Help Help!
@generousCircle6533
Porn is a unfortunate reality for a lot of people..
If your wife is offended it could lead to consequences i'm afraid..
Thank you for speaking up and being honest..🌲
This has been an ongoing problem for me as well. I’m 39 and it has brought me nothing but pain. I have an infatuation with porn to the point where I visit porn theaters. Use poppers. And it’s gotten to the point where I’ve cheated on my wife with a person with similar addictions. I’m about to lose marriage because of porn.
I think everything that is wrong with me has stemmed from being molested as a child. And then again when I was in my teens. But I don’t know. I signed up for this app today to see if similar people were out there. But I’m trying to find a therapist as well. Good luck
@waterdog619
I am sorry you go through it. We may have not start well, but we may finish well. You can finish well. One step a time. We cant let our past write our future. The things that happened to us, they affected and do affect us ... but we can get to a point where we just become free from that... and they are gone... nothing, but a bad memory. All the best to u
@generousCircle6533
Unfortunately it is a plague, you are not alone. My old I was addicted to porn and sexual immorality and it was really bad also, really bad. I had more problems but this is just demonic, nothing "normal" or good about it. Nothing. It just hurts you, your soul and your relationships. It consumes you. You need to start going the way of freedom from it.
Going through a similar situation I try to stop but I end up relapsing always and I think it has ruined my relationships
It's hard for a relationship when this junk is in the middle oof it all. Really hard. Alot of honesty to yourself and your spouse.
I’m hoping you heal from this sir, I’ve been addicted for almost a decade, I’m 24 now and I can whole heartedly say this demonic behavior has ruined my chances of becoming one of the best players in the world. Not Messi/Neymar level talent but right up there. I was the best player by far in my town and now I’m nothing. I’m hoping to get off before I ruin the little left
Just got done going to my emails and blocking porn, dating sites. It's a daily routine as I eliminate temptation. Yesterday was a mix of emotions. Tendency was really prevalent and emotionally i was angry, sad, and just plain irritated.I want to start my recovery journey but am clueless where to begin. This stuff is so engraved in me, and a lot of repair needs done.
@generousCircle6533
Sometimes you gotta be radical. and have patience with yourself and encourage yourself and focus on what is right, not beating yourself up...
You can throw away laptop, smartphone... buying dumbphone instead. Completely.
People around you that can support you, possible some supportive group... I can think of church, but there are many churches where unfortunately it is just not reality, yet when it is reality, there is nothing better I found.
What you feeding on... books, movies, music... whatever... it affects you a lot, so guard your heart.
Start somewhere, it will be hard journey, but u will be so happy and free. Worth it
