Porn addiction (relapse)
I had relapse and I am so mad at me. My mind is feeling dizzy now. I am so mad at me because I keep getting back there and everytime I came back after a week or 2, the intensity of it is increased always. It is so messing up my mind. It's keep making me feel worse than before. Because I am doing it more times every time I do and it is making my mind numb. But I can't control it, it is messing up with my beliefs, with my thoughts, with everything. At this point of life I Don't feel like i can stop it forever cause i am feeling so much worse from inside. I can't see good anymore for myself in the life. Everything is seems to be falling for me right now.😞
I was feeling so lonley so I came here to vent out.
I wrote a forum before about my addiction.I didn't find my old post, so I created this one.
@exuberantTalker9747 I am sorry you suffer from porn addiction. Have you considered getting professional help? A good first step can be to reduce the number of times a day you do that. Another step is to make sure you are not doing anything illegal like child porn that could have serious consequences.
Another idea is to start practicing Urge Surfing. There are a number of videos on youtube about that. \
Hope you get the support you are looking for.
Thanks, I am trying to stop it again. I can't get professional help but I am trying to get support from forums and listeners. I am 1 week clean now. I am trying to do meditation techniques and doing exercises when I feel like need to do that.
But most of the time I feel like crap, I don't feel urges now but still feel very sh*ity feeling inside me, I don't know what i am feeling but it is not good.
It’s a tough addiction . In there with ya .
@exuberantTalker9747
Your current internal reaction is understandable as it is tough to navigate addictions. Especially when the 'fix' is on your fone and we need to have fones with us always.
Have you heard of accountability apps? There are number of them out there and they help you stay on track and even block adult sites so you won't be tempted. Removing the temptation and the ability to access and relapse may give you peace of mind.
Feel free to reach out to me if you wish. I have been a porn addiction therapist and a good listener here on 7 Cups.
Please remember... You are not alone, you are worthy and you matter.
Hey yeah I tried some apps to block sites on the phone, but I most of the time feel alone and that's why I think I came back to po*rn. It is hard to find group who are going through same and also we can't talk about these topics offline with friends because of shame and other reasons. I feels like I needed some accountability partners to help me through this journey, thats why I posted this forum here. Thankyou for responding to that and being here. I needed someone to help. Hope we can beat this together.
I meant to say... Feel free to reach out to me if you wish. I have been a porn addiction therapist and a good listener here on 7 Cups for quite some years.
I use Brainbuddy app it has been working for me for 60 ish days
@linkbeltoperator24
That's awesome you have taken positive steps to move forward from adult material.
Don't be hard on yourself if the progress didn't go exactly how you wanted it to be. The great news is that you know you can get back on track, you have done so well this far.
Finding some other distractions when you feel tempted is beneficial too. Such as gaming such as Nintendo etc or walking/hiking, read a good book or a Kindle reader, even cooking a yummy meal as a self care reward for recognizing and taking your own initiative to ignore the bad and embrace the good.
Good luck.
Hey thanks for this. Is this app also controlling phone data or have features to block data ? I am using a app already but that doesn't have group chat features. So I will try brain buddy app now.
