Social media addiction
I feel so earge to check for messages on social media especially a specific platforms where I can meet people from different countries .I am not interested talk to people from my country because I feels I am so different from them (perspective ,I see lots of social things which i don't like ,but i genuinely don't believe I am better than anyone).I want to see world ,feel that know about that it really makes me feels alive but now its turning into obsession .I keeps checking platforms thousands times a day and wait eagerly for one message from anyone maybe because I am so lonely and in this process i met few people some took advantage of me with some I had good conversation and I connected with some who genuinely never deserve me ,now deep down I want to explore world from my mobile talk to someone native (it makes things so real to know ,a real normal life of a normal person from different corner of the world ).but not having anyone to talk makes my loneliness unbearable and sometimes just to stop my mind to race 24*7 I watch porn too .watching porn or masturbation become a thing to avoid lots of unsettling emotions of my heart .I like romantic ai dramas but with time I am noticing I am mostly thinking about sex in real life .Sometimes i just think about weird sexual things out of nowhere .I imagine private part of opposite sex and I imagine myself to enjoy that it comes in second and i realise too in second and try to avoid these thought .It making me think that Imy lifestyle and loneliness pushing me towards these unhealthy thoughts and i hate this out of control behaviour where i wait desperately for other (but I don't look for relationship and friend all I want just talk ,I may end up in relationship or will make some good friend but I want any relationship wisly but especially not in this vulnerable state of mind ).
@fairmindedPal265 its normal to feel addicted to both, especially if you feel disconnected from the world around you
but something that gets me out of technology all the time is just looking outside, which sounds silly but really
just look out at the sky and the clouds and maybe even the night sky.. its really so beautiful and makes you realise how much you've been missing :)
and once you start getting off of those things and get busy in real life, you won't feel the need to keep checking texts or doing the other thing you mentioned doing
dont worry, these are normal things to go through :)
Thankyou
@fairmindedPal265
I was struggling earlier in the year for similar reasons. I''ve consciously withdrawn from too much engagement for a respite from anticipating responses and communication, getting back into reading, especially not finishing books that weren't holding my attention has helped. Kindle unlimited has been a good send, almost endless selection of books for a relatively inexpensive monthly fee, i'd be broke without it.
Thankyou,i downloaded kindle let's see if it will work .In reality i have several hobbies while doing them I can even skip my meals of the day but this phase become hard I am loosing interest in those things to and I feel they made me also less social and they also drains me entirely .physically i don't have time to do anything and to focus on anything,I feel loneliness mentally and emotionally
