@fossilfellow Addiction Streak 🤍 *T.W*

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Day 3 - Last night was terrible, but I didn't completely give in ✅

Rainbow 🌈 

Day 4 - Today was terrible, but I stopped myself and didn't completely give in ✅

I feel like I deserve that green tick at all, but I'll try to make small changes from now, one day at a time.

Note to self: I will do my best to stay completely clean on day 5.

Day 5 - No urges, and I stayed clean all day ✅

Day 6 - No urges, and I stayed clean all day ✅

Note to self - I will do my best to stay completely clean on day 7.6

***trigger warning*** ( mention of Si and self hate ) please know I'm completely safe and just need to let it out somewhere.

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I feel lost, I'm scared of facing myself in the mirror, I don't know what I've become 😔 wish I was normal. I'm just a sinner, and deserve nothing but ***. I can't help these thoughts but after what I did or idk what I've always done. I don't know what to make out of it. Nothing makes sense... I don't see a point. I'm horrible, my brain is messed up. I'm exhausted. Everything I've ever fight for feels like a complete waste, point less and makes zero sense in this moment.

I don't know what's the point of posting this rn, nothing makes sense, deep down I know I need real therapy to heal from this, but as always, I'm scared to even think of it.