Journal/Log for Vyvanse Abuse/Addiction
24, addicted to vyvanse pills, I've been taking more than my daily dose and it has affected my life since I started in January 2024. I want to start a journal on here and talk to others who are also struggling with this.
The last time I abused was on Wednesday, 2 days ago, so you can say I'm 2 days clean not including today. I want to post on here daily to keep myself accountable and feel supported by like minded people.
Day 1: Complete
Day 2: Complete
It's been hard but I know I'm strong minded.
Day 4,5,6,7: Complete
Stayed on track this week. Ive been so busy with summer things I haven't been able to log.
@JamesA24 Proud of you! 💜
Day 8: Complete
I got home after being at a guy I'm seeing temporarily place and I cleaned my room, did some laundry for the weekend. Then went to bed. It's such a busy weekend, but cleaning my room made me feel greatful to have this part of my life sorta under control.
Day 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14: Complete
So busyyyy during the summer, I didn't take one on Monday, but I stayed on my daily dose. Urges are there when I feel sad/anxious.
Day 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20: Complete
Day 1: Complete
Relapsed this weekend. Its so fkn hard to be honest.
@JamessA24 I'm always here for you 💜🫂 You're not alone. Will take it one moment at a time.
*Big hugs* 🐾💗
@fossilfellow
Thank you <3 I appreciate it. I am also here for you as well
@JamesA24 ❤️❤️
Day 2, 3: Complete
Seriously contemplated relapsing these past few days. It's just so hard to accept that I will never get to experience that high ever again, because it was so good. I've been struggling with pressures and stress of my job, and confusion and testing of my love life that I've been finding it hard to want to be sober these past few weeks. My life can feel like a tornado sometimes and relapsing is like an escape from the storm.
I have a support system around me (friends and family) that understand my struggles so they keep me on track. I have hurt people because of these struggles and I don't want to do that anymore. I also have been resorting to alcohol the last few days to relive the pain, but I know that is just as bad because that is starting a new addiction. I think I want to practice staying off of social media to calm my brain for at least a week.
@JamessA24
❤️
Day 0: Relapsed
Finding it very hard to stay clean and stick to just one pill. I always find ways around it. I need to want it, but right now I don't. Its hard
@JamessA24 It's okay, you will get through this. Be gentle with yourself, and take it one moment at a time. I'm always here for you 💜
Day 1, 2, 3: Complete
It's been so hard to want to stay clean. I find talking about it helps, but I still struggle with the self want.
@JamesA24 ❤️❤️❤️
@JamessA24 ❤️
Day 4, 5, 6: Complete
Today I lost the vyvanse pill that was my daily dose and it really threw me off my day. I was very upset.
@JamessA24 You're doing great! 💖
