Does this belong here? Specific fetish addiction.
Hello.
I'd rather not discuss the fetish itself, but I will say it involves going through people's garbage. I need to stop and I don't know how. I'm driven by desire. And my anxiety increases my guilt afterwards ("did I cover my tracks", "did someone see me", "I'm getting arrested for sure this time", etc). Does anyone have similar experiences with an unorthodox fetish that involves similarly shunned/dangerous activities? And if so, how are you coping with it? How are you stopping yourself?
I've only done it a total of 4 times over the last month. Two of those times were a few days apart, the next a week, and today's was two weeks after the last. So I'm getting better I suppose, now that I write it out. But my relapse today concerns me. Also my anxiety is going off the charts right now. I was stupid enough to take something home with me. I can dispose of it easily enough but I need to stop.
Anyone else have any advice? I'd been doing well for about a week then suddenly broke down today. I have no idea what to do... if I don't stop i might get sick...
@FishMachine
I have some problems with fetishes too, pm me so we can talk :)
@FishMachine
Thank you for posting and sharing. Having a fetish is not a bad thing, but it is something to be self-reflective about (i think). Dont be so hard on yourself. Maybe you could talk to the people whose trash you are going through? Is it something about that person that interests you? Or the act of the fetish itself? Try to take some time to figure out more of your "why."
