Anxiety just in everything
Hello, I hope you are doing well. This is my first time ever doing something like this so bear with me.
More recently, I have gone back into having extreme anxiety and depression. I’d say this started around February. Since then my anxiety has skyrocketed. I mean I dealt with it before but it was lowering and it was easier to get rid of. Now I just constantly feel like something is going to go wrong. I constantly feel impending doom. It’s like my brain is looking for things to be scared or upset about. It is searching for anything to be anxious about. I even get extremely anxious and my mood gets ruined over the tiniest of things or difference in tone if Ykwim. It doesn’t go away either. It rarely goes away. I constantly feel cooped up with this anxiety in my chest and constantly scared something is gonna go comepletely wrong or my worst fears are gonna come true either in my relationship or in general. Not only have I been dealing with this anxiety boost, but I have also just been having non stop bad dreams since February too. Every single night I never fail to either have a nightmare or bad dreams. This can go from like extreme nightmares to just bad dreams about me arguing with my loved ones. These things have taken such a bad toll on me and it is showing and it is unfair to the people around me. I have hated myself more and I have felt more depressed, suicidal, worthless, lonely just a bunch of things. I also do not get that much sleep but I’ve always had that problem too. It is just so draining.
Anyways, thank you for reading if you did I appreciate it and lmk if you have any ideas or suggestions or if you’re just experiencing something similar
@Beaumafia
Congratulations on your first forum post! Sharing is a big first step to resolving a problem. So well done on taking that first step.
Have you heard of spoon theory? It might be an explanation of why the tiny-est thing ruins your mood.
Basically it is about how a chronic condition, like general anxiety, eats up our energy, so that we have very little in reserve, so when something minor extra happens, we get pushed over the threshold to being overwhelmed. You have run out of spoons of energy.
The trick is to not worry too much about the minor thing that tipped you over the edge, but get at the source of the general anxiety. Get that consuming less energy, and you will find that you can cope with the little extras so much better.
@Beaumafia I can relate. I also have dealt with horrible anxiety/depression since Feb. It's been awful. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been feeling like this. If there is anything I can do, even if it's just being here as a stranger to let you know I care, I can do it.