Fear of the Unknown is driving my anxiety high today
Today I'm going to have to confront someone about some issues. Confront really isn't a good word. I'm not generally confrontational. But I have to have a talk with someone about something incredibly uncomfortable. I don't know what they'll say - or if they'll respond at all. But, I'm just sitting here wondering what will happen - and of course, my brain just goes to "it's all going to be bad."
I hate that. I hate that I can't imaging this conversation going well, even though I want it to. I listened to a meditation this morning that said to envision a color that makes you happy, that makes you feel positive. And then take that color and send it forth into your whole day - color your day with that happiness and positive feeling. Look forward to seeing that color.
It was nice to hear, but I'm not really able to do it. I always used to be so optimistic, but anxiety has stopped me from feeling that way and has turned me very pessimistic and I don't like it. I don't like how I am now and I'm tired of it. I just want to be normal old me again, the way I used to be.
Hi @thoughtfulmomma ☺️
I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling anxious and pessimistic about the upcoming conversation. It's completely understandable to feel uneasy when approaching uncomfortable topics with someone. It's important to remember that you're taking a brave step by addressing the issues and trying to find a resolution.
Anxiety can often cloud our thoughts and make us anticipate the worst outcomes. However, it's essential to challenge those negative thoughts and remind yourself that there is also a possibility for a positive outcome. It's natural to feel a bit uncertain about how the conversation will go, but try to focus on the fact that you're taking action and expressing your concerns.
It's great that you listened to the meditation and tried to envision a positive color to carry with you throughout the day. While it may not have immediately alleviated your anxiety, it's a positive step towards shifting your mindset. Remember that change takes time, and it's okay to have ups and downs along the way.
It's important to be patient and kind to yourself during this process. Anxiety can change our perspective and make us feel like we've lost a part of ourselves. But remember, you are not defined by your anxiety. You have the strength and resilience to overcome it and rediscover the optimistic person you used to be.
If you find it challenging to manage your anxiety on your own, consider reaching out to a mental health professional who can provide guidance and support. They can help you develop coping strategies and work through the underlying causes of your anxiety.
Remember, you're not alone in this journey. Reach out to friends, family, or support groups who can offer understanding and encouragement. You deserve to feel like yourself again, and with time and support, you can regain that sense of optimism and positivity.