Feeling like a fool lately

I’ve been such a bumbling nervous wreck the past few days, it’s driving me crazy. I’m triggered so easily, I feel like if I tried harder it wouldn’t be so bad. But my mind falls for it every single time, I don’t get what’s wrong with me :( one moment I’m floating on air, the next I’m crashing down feeling like my world’s about to end any minute.

Sometimes it feels like I’ll never learn how to live like a normal person. How am I supposed to get a job and get it together when I’m always running around like a chicken with no head. Messing everything up and aggravating everyone around me just by being, well, me. It’s so aggravating.