Have been doing so good for so long but…

Not today.

I have been doing pretty good. Between therapy and medication and sorting out my life I have been doing well. I haven’t had a panic attack in a couple of months. Things have felt good for a change. Like I was starting to get back to myself.

And then today happened. A problem occurred- an irritation that will be resolved. It’s not fun but it’s not terrible. Just one of those things that can happen like a flat tire. Irritating, and puts you behind for a while but eventually it’ll get fixed.

My spouse completely overreacted to the issue. It’s one thing to be upset, but it’s entirely another thing to just go on and on about it and make it seem like the world is ending.

And that triggered my anxiety. I wasn’t initially anxious. I was mad at him but had things to do. But once i settled down I started having an anxiety attack.

I’m mad that I allowed it to happen. With all of my tools in my head, I just couldn’t stop his attitude from triggering me. Irritating.

My therapist would tell me that I let him took me in to his negative spiral. True. It’s hard not to sometimes. I guess I just have to try harder next time.