I said…but I couldn’t do it
I said I’ll face my fear today. I’ll stop putting it off. Been two days already. But when I opened my phone -- I just can’t do it. I am afraid of knowing what is next.
Idk why I am becoming like this. Maybe I find it hard to accept what could happen. Maybe not knowing is bliss yet if I don’t know, I won’t move forward.
@Mdreaming101
one of the most precious things we have is time........many people do not realize that until older
while not knowing whatever you are fearing may seem safe it seems thinking and worrying about this is taking time away you can never get back.
if your fear is not realized and the outcome is good ..... you are using time that could have been enjoying a positive outcome.
it is just a book I’m reading yet I found myself unable to go to the next page for fear of what may or may not happen to the protagonist. I am not usually like this. Turning a book page was never this difficult. I had always enjoyed my book regardless of the situation that was unfolding; be it sadness, lost, hurt, embarrassment, confusion, anguish, hate, violence, and/or rejection etc. I had enjoy it and was entertained. But me as I am now, I couldn’t be indifference.
I think it has to do with my emotional state due to real life events where I find it hard to accept and move on, so I rather tomorrow isn’t here; the same as not turning the page, not letting the event unfold, not knowing. Eventually tomorrow will come. Eventually I’ll have to turn the page or drop the entire book but I keep stalling. I’ll do this first and that, and those too. 🤷♀️ So for the last two days, I couldn’t bring myself to turn the page. Whenever I held the book and thought of turning the page, I felt a sense of urgently to run, to not know; this suffocation that I can’t take it.
@toughTiger6481