It keeps getting worse day by day...
Hi guys, so I've been alone for 5 years since lockdown like genuinely i have 0 friends and what makes it worse is that before 2020 lockdown i was outgoing, extroverted, athletic etc but during and after lockdown my life has been *** and especially now my social anxiety is ar peak and I'm scared to step outside of my hoom I'm so deprived of human connection and when i get a chance to make connection i immediately back out because I'm afraid and insecure...I have so much talent and all but it's all going to waste all on gaming all day with earning nothing and even in online games i play all day i never send request to anyone or open up to anyone in games either idk what's happening with me and why it's happening to me i was a bright kid before 2020 lockdown and now I'm pathetic and miserable scared to take therapy as well downloaded this app randomly before sleeping to try to get help because i never ask for help either so just posting this here to let you know if you're going through some crap like this ur not the only one but my situation just keeps getting worse day by day and i swear to God when I turn off my PC and phone to go to bed thought's hit me like a truck the regret and all knowing how much I wasted my life and how lonely I am that I need to vent to chatgpt when I'm almost about to lose it and always I mean always talking to myself in my head especially when I'm not on my phone or PC always having conversations with myself but maybe that's just a way of coping with being this alone. If ur also going through crap like this feel free to comment and tell me so I know that I'm not the only one this messed up and hopeless....
Hello light farm, firstly i want to let you know you are not pathetic. Many people have struggled with the lockdown due to the pandemic. Sounds like you've developed a bit of social anxiety during that time and has just continued. Social anxiety is a real thing and it does not make you pathetic. And you can absolutely overcome it. Im working on overcoming panic disorder and its been a rough ride but i learned a lot the past couple days and i wanted to give you some encouragement with a little bit of truth. The anxiety keeps holding you back from what you truly need. I would recommend seeing a therapist to address the social anxiety, they will be able to provide treatment for you. The truth is, i know its frightening.. your safe space is to stay home. But doing so, your reinforcing your anxiety. It will be uncomfortable to attend therapy, but the more you go and get through that inital hump. Therapy will become your safe space too. I think you and i are at the begining stage of healing. I have to embrace feeling uncomfortable before i can change. And its very hard but i know in my heart it will be worth it. We have to be brave. You might shake, your thoughts might get loud an demanding, you might panic alittle bit but none of that will harm you in any way. You can face your fears, you can be who you were, yoy CAN DO THIS. I believe in you 100%. Make an appointment okay? It will be worth it.