It’s my anxiety

I woke up today with nausea, feeling dissociated, that hot tingly feeling down my arms and my back on my skin. Trying to get past that. All the grounding techniques I know. I just want to cry in someone’s arms.

I feel so stupid, I was given a medication increase and then it was increased more. Which led to side effects. The dose was decreased and instead of going back to the initial dose, I didn’t ask questions, I reverted back back to where I started when the anxiety was like this.

I know I’ve got through this before but now this is feeling like an eternity.

I wake up scared. 😱 every night at 6pm no matter where I am or what I’m doing it, panic hits. I’ve journaled, walked, ate. Listened to all the the calming music.

I’m missing work and therapy appointments. Well last week anyways. I’m so scared and feel so alone. I don’t tell anyone close to me because I don’t want judgment. 😭