trying to recover

so i want to talk about a few things , well one of the things it come up before, was someone said when i said about looks they said as if this was superficial. but i think this is what I value, though i value other things as well,  often times other people`s values clash with my values or with other people`s values. and sometimes i tend to think that people are afraid to recognize that everyone looks at appearances at a certain level, some more than others perhaps, from the way you dress, to the way you look, etc jobs, dates, partners, etc.  so this is a tricky one cause it sometimes arises.

differences of thought. the other one is , well i kinda got hooked up with a series lately, it finished, but since i am trying to be more outside of my house .  next time instead of watching a series while i eat, i will try to do other things, so not watch series, cause then i stay too much time inside my house. So i need to work on being more outside, trying to do different activities outside. which is the part were i have to work on being sociable.  sometimes i get overwhealmed when people get too close to me , like in the grosery store.  but even if things are repetitive, though i would preffer it when i can change things so things are more fresh, gym 6 days per week,   so my big challenge is trying to be more outside among people, even if i dont talk,  though it would be nice to talk sometimes.  though when too much around people i tend to get burn out i guess, but now that i cut my video game playing , i can focus more on recovering from isolation.  i have many things i want to adress but one would be my computer addiction which is still taking a big chunk of me.