Anxiety Dilemma

When I was little, I use to be a very bright kid. My grades were perfect and I had an interest in education. I loved parctipating in science clubs and parctipating in class. As I got older my grades slipped and I have so much anxiety over them still. I get so stressed when I see I did bad on something. My grades are better now than they were last year, but I still am in my mindset that I can always do so much better.

And also, while I have an interest in clubs and stuff, my anxiety permits me from joining. Theres this creative writing thing, and I love to write. But the idea of showing that writing to others? It makes me feel sick. I think they would laugh at me and call it mediocre and stupid.

I wish I didnt have to deal with anxiety.

It makes me worry over such stupid stuff. I always thing I might die from something stupid.

My friend pulled a prank on me where she pretty much made me think she was very mad at me and I was having an anxiety attack over that because I cant stand people being mad at me. I didnt tell her that I had an actual anxiety attack though, but she could tell from my texts that I was worried. I dont know why I worry over stuff like that, but I was fine when I went zip lining, and I can go on literally any amusement park ride without second thoughts.

Why do I have to worry about such abnormal stuff? Well, I guess thats all. This is a jumbled wreck, but its just a few things Im thinking about.