Anxiety over a sport
So my dad really wants me to do atheism . He thinks its the base of a healthy and care - free life . 2 years ago i joined a sports club i did track and field . Its a very stressful sport and we were divided by groups depending our age . I didn't have any friends and there was a specific group of girls who bullied me . Than covid came . And i stoped going . I was doing good at the time . One day my dad yelled at me for "sitting in my room" all day and told me to start going to practice again . I tried to explain i didnt wanna go anymore because i didnt have any friends and i found it very stressful and hated it . He took my phone away and ignored me till i declined again , beacuse i had to study for a test . He started yelling again and this time it was worse . I did go but i kinda minimilized it into 1 or 2 times a week . My mom knew that i was hated going and somedays she told my dad i went but i stayed home . Now that we have the finals , he lets me stay and study , but when the finals end he wants me to start again. I really dont want to . What do i do?
@understandingOcean8592
I'm sorry. Can you just honestly talk with your dad?
This is quite good
@understandingOcean8592
I can definitely see the pain and exhaustion that you must be carrying and how draining it might be wedged between the pressure of your finals and the dread of returning to a space that has bullying and loneliness. On top of that, the isolating feeling of having your words to your dad being dismissed must be difficult to deal with. I understand why you can't enjoy the thought of finals ending isnt enjoyable because that relief is accompanied by the return to an unhappy place.
You're handling a lot right now, its a heavy weight to tackle and it seems like you want to be heard and understood rather than forced to be what someone else wants you to be.
I'm so sorry that you are going through this, and anxiety is alot to deal with. Your feelings are very valid and I hope you know that.
