Can someone be my friend?

Hey, I hope everyone is doing well out there. I just wanted to share something that's on my chest for so long, so I need friends who can listen to it all, because I have literally forgot how it feels like to have friends, it's been 7 years, I barely go out of my house, I have no friends, no life, no enjoyment, nothing that makes me happy. My life has just been so miserable, I m depressed, have social anxiety, experience panic attack, no self esteem, no confidence. every where I look I don't see anything that can make me happy, life has become so uncolorful.

I think no one wants to be friends with a loser like me, I have always been sidelined my entire life even by my so called friends during my school days, Days in and days out every day is just the same, me laying on my bed all day, no energy to do anything, just starting at my phone, it's been like this for 7 yrs straight now, I wonder if I m even alive anymore, I wonder if I disappear tomorrow would anyone miss me expect then my parents.

I have joined many groups for support but nothing really is working out, in this app it is the same, no one really talks with me, whenever I try to share my thoughts nobody listen to it.

I don't blame them because no one really cares about strangers unless they get any benefits from it.

There is no one willing to shoulder Your pain for no benefit of their own. Remember it. In order to get help you must PROVIDE help to others, with no certainty of response or success. It's not fair, nor is it just; but that is the way it is. No one cares about Your pain and hurt. All you can do is relieve others of their struggle and hope that they are smart enough to appreciate it

But I kinda give myself a credit, for making out through this miserable life for so long, and I m not giving up because I know good days will come into my life too, it's just a dream but I believe in it.