Cant Call

First I guess a little background info. I am currently dealing with infertility. I have had 2 miscarriages and 4 failed attempts at ovulation inducation with oral medication. My last appointment with my dr was left at if I did not concieve to call and set up an appointment to discuss next possible steps in this journey. We had a vacation planned 3/12 and my husband and I agreed to enjoy ourselves and call when we returned. Well we obviously did not get to go on our vacation and we are defintely not enjoying ourselves at the moment. But I recieved an email from my dr office saying that they were conducting telehealth. Here is where my problem lays. I can not even pick up the phone to make the call. I feel a level of guilt for wanting to move forward with this process at this time given the state the world is in. But I also know that I need to be a mother and I need to be able to move forward with this, and it is just a consult via the phone/computer so its not like any PPE will be used and I am not being put at risk by coming in contact with anyone from my own living room. Chances are any procedures that I am going to be reccomended for have been put on hold and cant move forward at this time anyway, so wouldnt it be best to just get the consult part out of the way so we know what are next steps are as soon as everyone is given the go ahead?! So why is it that I cant even pickup the phone!?