Constant restlessness
This been quite sometime. I cant feel the peace or queitness within me. Every minute everu second of my day is passing with questioning myself and blaming myself. I dont know why i have started doubting myself most these days. Its like even if my people are saying over and over that not all the tbings are my faults and there are things which are beyond my control i cant seem to admit it . Its like there is a voice inside my head which says all the time that i am the one to blame. I havent done anything right and i am the only one becoz of wh.everything is mess. I dont wanna feel like this anymore.. every now and then being in anxiety that something is going to happen. So ething terrible is going to happen and i am the reason behind it.... I feel really worthless and just a burden. The only reason these days i am waking up is because i oromosed myself that i would take good care of my parents because that is what it should be. But i dont know anymore if i enjoy spending my day or i am just breathing. I am.just too burned our and exhausted. Any comforting word would be really good.
@unassumingJar1322 First of all, what an amazing thing you are doing for your parents. You are making sure that even through your own struggles and pain, that are being taken care of. That is incredibly kind, compassionate, and shows your strength. I know I don't know your exact situation, so it's not something I am able to even try to guess on, but I know from my own experiences and other people that I know well, that sometimes we forget to be kind, compassionate, and patient with ourselves, too. We can be so good at giving and being kind to others, that we forget about ourselves. So sometimes it helps if we talk to ourselves and think to ourselves, like how we would talk to a really dear friend or close family member. Sometimes that is enough to help a bit when things get hectic.
What are some things that you have tried in the past to help with some of these thoughts or anxious feelings? Are there things that have helped?
For example, I find that mediation helps me significantly if I am able to get in a regular, daily, habit. As well as a good workout, like a nice brisk walk, yoga, or bike ride, They all get those calming feelings and feel good feelings working, you know?
Thank you so much for your kind words.. i dont exactly understand but I figured somehow i am having anxiety about me being with my parents... Whenever they are not in good health or anything i cant say that to them but internally i feel terrified. And all these thoughts that I will be really alone if my parents are not around. When the pandaemic started and I came home i thought that they are being dependent one but now i have realized that it was rather opposite i have become totally dependent on them emothinally.. and happening any slight changes in them frfaks me out. I tried doing yoga and just drawing random stuff if nothing just shading the entire page with different colors or just pencil sometimes that helps me but not all the time. Will I ever be okay???
@unassumingJar1322
Hey there, without knowing your exact experience and situation it is hard for me to know exactly what is going on, but your self-awareness on this and the way that you are able to take a step back and see the whole picture is a pretty good indicator that even though you may not feel it, you have the ability to be on the path to understanding this more and evolving from it. These are and have been pretty uncertain times in general. It is understandable that you are experiencing this.
In my experience, if/when I am really stressed, nervous or worried about something, I try to immerse myself in learning some things about it. These guides have helped me in leaps in bounds, I will leave the links in case they are something you haven’t checked out yet and might be interested in:
https://www.7cups.com/anxiety-help/
https://www.7cups.com/boundaries/
https://www.7cups.com/panic-attacks-help-online/
I am not sure if you have in the past or have experience with therapy or counseling, but that is also an excellent avenue to check out if you are still not feeling like you are getting through some things in a way that feels better. Sometimes they are able to offer us a different perspective or help us obtain tools for our toolboxes, to navigate some things a litter better.
Oh and also mediation is something else that can start helping if you are open to or wanting to try working that into your daily habit.
How has this week been going for you?
Its morning in my region and your text somehow comforted me big time early in the morning... This week was quite okay.. i tried to get myself into work and started watching series so that i wont give my mind time to think about something else.. they say thinking about something else helps but even though i am doing my job or watching something there is something in my mind which keeps poking me.. it became exhausting long ago.. i am exhausted but this week i just didnt do specifically to decrease it neither increase it. And yes i've thought of counselling but sometimes they are quite expensive and i wont be able to afford right now... For now I am just trying to accept the fact that till the time i dont get any specific solution i just have to live with it.. without fighting with the thoughts..
And also..thank you soo much for the links.. i'll sure them.. And also last time i forgot how are you doing?
@unassumingJar1322
I am doing well, thank you for asking! I completely understand about the counseling aspect and cost.
It’s really cool in my opinion to have a place like 7 Cups. Though the Listeners do not give advice like therapists can and do, they are here to listen, to support, to help brainstorm, care, and sometimes that can be amazingly helpful. Sometimes just being heard is a huge help, too.
There are a couple of different ways to connect out here that might be super helpful as well, as you are already aware there are these sub-communities forums, like the one here that you and I are posting in.
Just in case you are not yet familiar with the other ways, I will link them here:
There are 1:1 chats with listeners which there are a couple of different ways to connect. You can either click the chat down menu and choose general chat and the first available Listener will connect with you. Or you can go here and browse for an available Listener https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners/
you can also click the more filters link and search for Listeners by topic.
There are group support chats here: https://www.7cups.com/connect/groupChatrooms.php
and a special events calendar here: https://www.7cups.com/home/communityCalendar.php
There are the support guides I already linked to you in my other post as well: https://www.7cups.com/supportGuides/selfHelpGuides.php
And then there are other growth paths you can start up and follow:
https://www.7cups.com/path/modifier/premium/
We are here for you, care about you, and support you.
I am glad to hear that this week was quite okay for you. It sounds like you are still dealing with a bit of things, but it sounds like they are things that you are familiar with and familiar with the feeling, lately?
Yes.. the feeling is quite familiar the more i think about it more I feel that i have been having these thoughts for a loonng time may be ever since I became an adult ...and then slowly slowly things got piled up coz i never paid attention to them and now all of my fears combined are making me crazy.. but weird is i get this restless feeling when the situation doesnt even exist but if actually something happens remotely near the worst cases I thought i dont feel restless anymore rather either i feel desperate to make that right or try my 1000 to make it atleast 10% better . May be this sounds weird but yeah... For the last week i am trying my 1000 to make it slightly better... Thank you for all the links ...i checked the previous links you providee and i am really thankful to you... I'll go through these links as well..and thank you sooo much for listening to me... And giving me comfort.. it really means a lottt...
Breath. You will be okay, all your feelings are fleeting as the moments pass. You are strong and compassionate but you need your own time too. Hang in there, stay strong and keep us apprised of how you are doing.
Thank you soo much for the kind words... It really motivates me... I am trying my best to stay strong.. and sure i'll keep updating how am I doing.. as I said for now my attention is trying my 1000 level best so that i can make slightest change.l coz something triggering happened and I want to keep myself calm atleast...
