Different ways my anxiety manifests

I feel okay and suddenly out of no where everything seems to slow down my mind is racing though, I cant feel anything or hear anything around. My body is tingling and a feeling of dread erupts from my stomach crawling up my body and stops in my throat. I try to swallow it down. I snap out of it, go on like nothing happened.

thats how it started, I didnt even realize that it was my panic/anxiety attack. Nothing needed to happen, it would just come, and it would go.

Then it was random fits of crying, I would have to duck away at work because I would cry. Why am I crying? I would ask myself over and over. Just crying, sometimes I would go outside so I could sob without disturbing my residents and scream. Hit my steering wheel. So frustrated with my random fit of emotions.

Realizing it was my anxiety I think back to when I was a kid and when I would cry all night worried about everything panicking about nothing. My mom would talk me down and Id sleep. I thought everyone did that.

Recently its manifesting as shaking, and being unable to catch my breath. Ill hyperventilate to the point where I pass out. My boyfriend can barely talk me down he doesnt want me to pass out again. Most of the time, Im crying so hard no one can console me.

i feel crazy, hopeless, out of control. My mind is making me feel like Im a time bomb.