Don't know if I should do this
Since some months I have this feeling that I am not good at anything and I'm not living or working as per expectations of others or even my own. I get scared if I get something new to do at work or at home something goes wrong. I've been having thoughts like would it better if I would not be around. I dont feel like doing anything as i think ill not be able to do it or just mess it up. I'm scared all the time of anything going wrong.
@sunnyGlobe567
congratulations, your are normal.
Everyone i know worries about doing something new or taking on challenges and they internalize even small mistakes or errors into mighty failures in their head........ yes sometimes people screw up royally i have but i move on do not dwell on it....
As for expectations it is a matter of perspective .......... i have seen many who set impossible expectations and always fall short while others keep them amazingly low and i feel they could or should do so much better ........ But the reality is i am not them i need to live first and foremost with myself .........
ending anything only brings pain and disappointment to those who you think you are not living up to their expectations ... your best option is to keep trying and not dwell on the little setbacks we all have.
Thank you, @toughTiger6481, for the kind words. I have been going down the rabbit hole of my negative thoughts since i got ignored for a promotion at work in october. So at the start of this year i'd thought i'd do better by not judging myself atleast, others' judging me is out of my control. But few things happening like someone in extended family sort of disrespected me in front of others at a family gathering for no fault of mine, then kid got unwell for almost 2 weeks, then some financial distress, which has not resolved yet. I think i lost my mind somewhere in trying to cope with all these things that are not in my control.
@sunnyGlobe567
I understand and find solace in knowing that each challenge / each person / each triumph is meant to teach us something.........
while that is of little comfort when a person is surrounded by more then one negative ......... when you feel you have reached you end take a deep breath and realize you have got this...
even if the results are not perfect it is better to have finished a challenge then quitting even if you come in dead last.........
@toughTiger6481
Thank you for responding.
Since the beginning of this year I feel that I get stuck too often, be it personal life or work. It feels awkward that whatever I start doesn't get done on time. This hasn't improved yet. It makes me question my capabilities, and wonder do I even have any...
I hope to find a breakthrough for my current works in progress. *finger crossed*