I can't carry this anymore
I feel numb. Crying for months and still not progressing in a positive way.. I don't know what to do with my life anymore, if only leaving was that easy I have left a long time ago. My heart aches, it's getting heavier as days pass by. I can say I'm going downhill, deep inside a void. I am lost and not one of my family notices.. I wanna keep fighting but I wanna leave everything so badly..
Do you know to say what is triggering this feeling?
I am uncertain. It's like a switch that suddenly changes my mood. I've been experiencing this for so long that I'm finding it normal to feel this way already..
I am feeling the same JuicyFruit. It's very difficult to get up in the morning, and even more difficult to fall asleep. It's never a single thing that brings me down, it's just that emptiness like nothing we do matters. To get rid of this feeling, ending it is not the solution :( it just isn't. I just know people would be very upset if I did that. I'm sure your family would be too. I dunno who you are but we are really the same. You dont have to fight, you just have to exist. Just be. Don't care too much about the little things, don't be afraid to make mistakes. Don't be afraid of writing on here, or messaging strangers online. Just try to be safe.
Thanks @NoniBoi, without a doubt I am just existing not living anymore. This isn't the life I wanted to have but it just happened. I am left without anyone by my side, I feel like living in a nutshell thus, this made me lose of everything. I'm quite relieved that this platform exist, I can freely express what's on my mind without judgement.. For now I'm still holding on a thin thread of life.
Hey @juicyfruit06, sometimes family doesn't have the emotional capability to support you like you need. I know mine doesn't. I just stay in my room all day and they tell me to be normal but I just can't get out of bed at times. You gotta do things for yourself and not feel guilty. Try to have something to look forward to. That usually helps. Something like a podcast that comes on 3 times a week, or a tv show that comes every week. Or a YouTuber that posts videos often. It gives you a schedule. Gets you into back into a rhythm. When you slowly get a schedule and a rhythm, it keeps you a bit busier and less likely to feel empty and overthink. But remember! Anything you fill your schedule with helps. It could be bird feeding, a walk, listening to music, reading a book. Don't think that because it's small, it doesn't matter. Every little step matters. I've lived with this, for 10 years now. It's not always better, but it's been getting better slowly, with little steps. I've learnt tricks that help with dealing with this. You can do it too!
@juicyfruit06
Hey! I am Marlee, a listener here on 7 cups. Thanks for sharing your difficulties with us. I totally get what you are going through. You are so strong for keeping going. I know that it all must be very tough for you right now but I believe in you. I understand, sometimes our emotions can feel overwhelming. Crying is entirely okay and can even sometimes help us feel better. I know it feels stupid to you, but you don't have to be so hard on yourself. It's okay to feel whatever you're feeling. What is hurting you the most right now?
Do other people know how you're feeling? Sharing this could help you feel better.
You will get through this <3
Hello @LovelyMarlee Everything seems to be hurting me right now.. I feel super sensitive that it's irritating me already, my family would constantly get mad at me for feeling this way and I've got no one else besides them.. No one, I live with my grandparents and I tried to talk to my grandma about it and she'd just get mad at me for being like this.. I tried to reach out to others but they don't mind it at all. Everything is so heavy for me right now, I feel disconnected from everything. Sometimes I'd say it would be better if I just sleep so I don't have to feel this way anymore it's exhausting.
@juicyfruit06
So sorry to hear that! You deserve better. Sleep can help sometimes but it is not a final solution. It sounds like you just feel very exhausted and down, maybe you could try to find a new activity that makes you happy and makes you feel passionate. It could help you to feel a bit better. Maybe try to write about your feelings and give them to your family members so they could understand you better and huge you less for your feelings.
I hope you feel better soon! <3
let me tell you that if your heart is beating right now if you are breathing and alive, Gods not done, there is a reason you’re alive or else you wouldn’t be. life is so so fragile and precious and not many people realize that. i TOTALLY feel you that no one notices obviously i can’t imagine what your situation is or put myself in your shoes but you can do this. you can. you will do this. i believe in you, i truly truly truly believe in you. praying for peace for you🤍
@juicyfruit06 there for you