I did it!

I often wake up anxious. Well, actually I don't, I wake up, start thinking about something, start worrying about it, which leads me to the next worry etc etc. It just snowballs and I can't stop it. And the knowledge that I'm snowballing just adds another worry to the snowball and makes it worse and Ahhhhh!
Today I was snowballing. We're going on holiday. There's lots to do before leaving. Last holiday I got overwhelmed and spoilt the beginning of the holiday and here it was, happening again and I don't want the holiday to start like this. I can't stop it. And i know trying to stop it is making it worse. Etc etc.
I got up, ignored the dog shit on the floor, ignored the washing up that needs doing, ignored the chickens who need letting out, ignored my packing that needs doing, and all the rest and wrote myself a list. Wow. Such a little thing. Such an obvious thing. And not a new thing - ive written todo lists many times before. But now it's not all in my head. It's no longer overwhelming. I can do one at a time. I STOPPED A SNOWBALL. I'm so proud of myself. No doubt there'll be others. But now I know they are stop-able. I can stop them.
​​​No one in my day to day life would get this. Maybe no one here will get it either. But i don't care. This is for me. I did it. Its important to me and I will take a moment to notice it.
Me.