I don't know what to do anymore
I've been a first responder for over 15 yrs so yeah I've seen some things. I was recently diagnosed with ptsd. I've been having nightmares (you know the kind where you wake up drenched with sweat and screaming), flashbacks and panic attacks. I noticed that I have been drinking more to numb myself and to not feel anything. I've been trying to cut back but that has been real hard. I am so overwhelmed with anxiety. I just don't know what to do any more. It is affecting my job and everything.
Hello there @Lucky539,
I'm really sorry to hear you are going through all this, I imagine it's really difficult to manage it all and keep functioning at your best. I can only imagine how having such a job for such a long time would affect someone. I think it's good that you seek help and hope that therapy and reflection on the traumas and your life will help you recover step by step. It's important to try to take your time and don't put too much pressure on yourself to get well veeeery soon if you are not ready. Do you still have the same job? And if yes do you feel that taking a break from this for a while could help you? :)
I hope you will feel better soon and take care!