I think I cursed my dog and am PANICKED about it!!!!
I had a situation at work where I told a few co-workers something about myself and something I was having a hard time with that was eating away at me mentally. It got back to my boss.
He told me he heard something and asked me about it.I know no one was gossipping or spreading news maliciously; they were just worried about me and wanted to share concern with people who could help me.
I asked my boss where he heard it and he said he didn't want to reveal. I tried and tried to get him to tell me because I was panicked who it came through. I swore on my dog's life I wouldn't say anything.
Eventually he told me.I found out he heard it from my other boss, Kim.I never told Kim,so I knew one of my friends must have.
I didn't mention anything to Kim, and will never confront her about it, but I did tell one of my friends that I knew Kim was the one who told my boss.
Soon after, I realized I had sworn on my dog's life the day before that I wouldn't say anything! (When I said I wouldn't say anything, I thought my boss would tell me my FRIEND said it, and I meant I wouldn't bring it up to her. When he told me it was someone else, I went in to panic mode and tried to figure out who told THAT person!)
THE POINT IS, I swore on my dog's life I wouldn't say anything,and while I didn't say anything to the person who actually told my boss the secret,I did tell another friend who told that I knew who told my boss, and I named the person.
I'm SO panicked because this all happened in a high anxiety state and I should have never said anything.
I regret it and will never do that again.
I came clean and told my boss that I told one person, I didn't tell him who, and I apologized.
I also apologized to my dog and went to church. I talked to God later and explained the whole story, and asked for forgiveness.
My dog is like my child-she is my whole world and I love her dearly.
I have not been able to stop my anxiety. I feel like if something happens now, or in 8 years, it is all my fault; like I have put some awful curse on her.
I feel like a murderer. I feel like I have committed an unspeakable act. How do I live with myself? What do I do?
@GlitterGirl24 Hi, I think maybe you are just overthinking it all. We say things we don't mean in times of stress and anxiety, words can't effect a living things life. You have no physically harmed your dog in any way, relax and give yourself a break. You love this dog like your own child and I am sure the dog knows this too . Best wishes :)
@GlitterGirl24 I understand how hard this is for you since you swore on your dogs life and your dog is so important to you, you wouldnt want to curse your pet at all. My advice is that since you had no choice, you couldnt avoid it and since you have made amends such as going to church and apologising to your dog you are free to feel better, it wasnt like you gossiped to your boss they asked you about it and you had to share with your boss at that point, so please do not worry this is something that couldnt be helped and you did your best to keep that promise, let yourself off the hook sweet :) x
@GlitterGirl24 Hey dont worry so much, maybe you are just over--thinking. Your doggie will be fine, dont worry, try not to be superstitious it will only worsen your anxiety. Stay positive and calm.