Just Grabbing This Quiet Space Here

Struggling. Made the mistake of having caffeine today and it brought on a panic attack. That was dumb. I know better, but it was a treat (mocha) to make me feel better. It did briefly. And then it didn't. :)

There are currently 18 days left in our "shelter-in." Of course, that's if they stick with that date. I hope they do but I don't feel confident. I'm feeling a lot of stress from everyone and everywhere and I hate that I'm not strong enough to deal with it. I used to be. I could handle anything. Now every cough, sneeze, ache, twitch, complaint, and thought just hits me like a ton of bricks.

This anxiety comes in waves. I just wish the daytime hours were the good hours, and the sleeping hours were when the anxiety hits. :)