Lonely

Hi @findingmyself018

I agreed that must feel sad to continuously have to chase after people.

Perhaps these questions below may help you further understand the pattern

How do you usually start the friendship?

What usually type of friends that you go after?

What do people need that you help fulfill?

What usually stop them from coming to you? or what had made them detach from you?

How are you going to make it different next time?

I'm glad to hear that you want to feel happy with yourself 💜

@findingmyself018

Coming to this site is a good start. Just being able to talk to someone, without judgement or personal bias, may be the spark you need to feel validated and good about yourself. It is hard for me to makes friends, also. In my case, I don't enjoy groups or small talk, which makes it hard to meet or get to know people. Even then, not that many people want to take the time to have a relationship that goes below the surface. If they walk away, they probably aren't the right fit to begin with. The lock-downs make it harder to do; but my personal plan is to find activities I can enjoy ... which will hopefully put me in a pool of like-minded people ... or having at least an interest in common. Then there is no pressure or expectation; but friendships may naturally occur. Meanwhile, the people on this site may offer a little balm for the soul.

@findingmyself018

I definitely know how that feels. You must know that you are not alone. Try to think positively because the mind is the most part that seems to fuel such thoughts and feelings.