Middle child
a middle child typing..
Since I was a child my sister was better than me in everything but as a child I never noticed how differently people treated us, growing up i started seeing those little differences and every time I would get more and more unsecured about them
I’ll give u some examples since I’ve been holding this inn for many years, I used to get bullied verbally and physically when I was just a poor child my mom used to be my defender they would tell mom “why is she wearing eyeglasses” “why is she so thin” “how is she not blonde like her siblings” “u should take her to a therapist”, my cousins who were older than me used to treat me like a boy they would fight with me and bunch me even would dare me to take off my pants so I can be part of there gang, my aunts used to tell me “when u where younger u were so ugly idk how u changed” as a kid I was always trying to fit inn the frame but they will always kick me out
taking inn all that and holding it was hard I never had someone to talk to not even my my mom because she would spread my secrets to literally everyone same with my sister if I told her she would tell my mom and everything is repeating. Then comes my teenage where I thought everything will finally be fine because I had a quiet glow up, everyone started treating me different my cousins they became different humans even my aunts, but I never changed the way I look at them, bullies who judge a person by there looks so, until now, I hate them and I will never love them because they created my childhood trauma, if I saw my younger self rn I would burst into tears for how bad she used to be treated this is probably my childhood trauma story I hope it can help someone who feels the same
@Someoneyoulike
Hello,
Your childhood seems like it was difficult on you<3
I can understand why you still view them as bullies.
On the positive side, it seems you've grown and came out better on the other side<3💛💫
@Someoneyoulike
Hi there Someone,
It sounds like you were surrounded by a lot of duplicity in your life. I understand how that can lead to lots of feelings surrounding unsteady-ness and like everyone might have some hidden opinion that they're not voicing. I want to share that I understand, for a lot of my life I didn't feel like I could really trust anyone because they'd hide whatever opinion they had of me and then share it with others. The truth I've found most powerful in these situations is that the universe is a mirror, and most times, what people say about us, is usually a reflection of themselves.
Being a scapegoat is painful, but it can also allow us the space to grow and prove to be the shining example of something they couldn't ever see for themselves.
I'm rooting for you!
@Someoneyoulike
Hey there, I understand what it’s like to be constantly compared to your siblings and be told that they are much better than you. I also know what it’s like to be bullied and shamed for being different. I know the pain you feel, the anger you feel and the need to always keep your walls up so that no one can take advantage of you, hurt you or betray your trust. I know how hard it is to have to face these insecurities everyday that were caused by these people. It’s okay to hate them and it’s okay not to forgive them but it is important to know that this was not your fault. It wasn’t because you were a bad child nor was it because you deserved it. These people they are the ones that are at fault. I’m sorry that you had to experience this too and I know it’s going to take a long while to move on from it but hey don’t give up on the world just yet, there a lot more people out there who would accept you for who you are and love you even with your flaws. So don’t keep your heart closed with all that anger and hate but open it to let people show you their love and kindness. One day you’ll meet the most amazing friends that would have your back and accomplish things that these naysayers said you couldn’t. I know that much.