One wish I have for the future is....
I have BIG dreams. Sometimes it frustrates me so much that I am not there yet . But I believe I can get there. I am going to get my massage license and start learning more about herbal medicine. It has helped me so much and I think it would make me so happy to be able to heal people in that way. I want to build a beautiful space built in harmony with nature and I want the freedom to travel. I know I have lots of inside and outside work before I am there. I love the beautiful visions that have been dancing in my head the past couple years and I'm happy I finally know what I want.
for me to have a healthy relationship with myself and others
To wake up in the morning and be excited to get up and live my life. I want to have that child-on-Christmas-morning feeling everyday, be genuinely joyful and ecstatic to be alive.
To be genuinely and consistently happy
Stop blaming myself for my ex's suicide. 
To stop getting angry for almost everything...
I know it's a huge flaw in my personality, and I can't seem to get rid of it.....
Die in the space.
To learn to live happily without my dad.
@black1995 I am so very sorry.... I don't know your age or situation but I lost a child 13 years ago and I know that's not the same as losing a parent. I can only imagine... Take everything one day at a time and remember the good times you shared with your father. Cherish those memories the rest of your life... I'm very close to my own father and I can only imagine how you must be feeling and I hope things end up getting better for you. Much love to you
~ Tranquilthought
@Tranquilthought thank you thank you thabk you thank you thank you thank you thank you
@Tranquilthought Ps- I just turned 16
@black1995 My oldest son is 16 and the signs right now are that his mom will move far away. I cannot feel how much pain he is in, but I know he hurts a lot. I bet it is the same for you. The difference is that you are willing to talk about it and believe me, that is HUGE. And because of that I am convinced you will be fine some day, you will do great in school, go to college or learn a trade, and start making dreams come true. Not sure what happened with your dad, but no matter what, I bet he wouldn't want it any other way.
@tallNickel7562 you all don't know how much this means to me. I am so, so sorry for your son. I don't want anyone else to be in this position, to be this hurt. My mom was completely shattered and she is the reason why I am trying to stay strong. I don't want to lose her now. And I am so, so thankful to you and for your words. They mean the world to me. Really.
To live happily on my own.
To be panic attack and phobia free
