One wish I have for the future is....

I want to be better.

To find pain relief. It's mind numbingly insufferable to have severe, unmanaged, chronic pain for so long.

I am not hopeful that this will ever happen. Medical professionals do not seem interested in treating pain. My pain has no blood test or image of proof.

So, I do what I can to manage severe pain with mild medications.

To have a stable place to live on my own and no longer fear being homeless

To move away from the insane alcoholics and drug addicts in the crappy apartment building I live in that only has community bathrooms and tiny kitchenettes without room for stoves and full size fridges. I hope to get the hell out of Utah and move in with my brother 1,300 miles away in Texas.

To not let my anxiety get the best of me, to not let it control me. I want to be able to go through life and not have to struggle with it so much..

That everything works out exactly how I want it to. I can

To have a running car and place for me and my daughter and to have better people in my life

we become close friends again like we use to be

Just to be okay and present in the world again

A job , maybe