One word I'd use to describe my anxiety is.....

@braveShade1909........ It is such a looooonnnngggg Story...... If you are interested I will communicate with you. But I must warn you that even though it is because of bad choices. There are so many mitigating factors..... I would be dead if I did not think it a very wrong thing.... to take my own life..

But thank you for asking..............xx