Relationship "break"

I was in a traumatic relationship for 4 years. It's left a mark.

My self esteem took a knock. I am still unable to make decisions. I am in a constant fight or flight response. My emotional are felt ten-fold to what they should be felt.

My current partner has said he needs a break from all our arguing.

I have felt overwhelmed and panicked since he said this. He said he needs to think about us and isn't sure if he wants to be with me anymore. I am automatically thrown back to where I was before. I feel lost, panicked, afraid, overwhelmed .

I am afraid.

I have a deep sense of unbelonging. And being alone is frightening. I don't understand why I am so sensitive.

I haven't eaten for 2 days, I cant stomach it. I cant sleep. I cant even wash. I've tried to take my mind off things but as soon as I remember I get this intense wave of panic throughout.

No one wants to talk to me as they see it as nothing and time will heal. I don't want time to heal. I need to heal now I'm not strong enough to to go through this again