Scared
3 jobs that have gone away. Already had a bad year last year, but was beginning to recover. Not young and have no back up. Zoom with friends and family all in much better condition which adds to the self loathing/reminder of a lifetime of bad choices. It feels like everyone has it figured out except me. Sort of frantically grasping at straws about next move.
@exuberantRaspberries6581
In the glimpse youve shared with us, in some ways, I can relate to your situation.
It makes sense why you feel fear, and why communicating with your loved ones feels more bitter than sweet. I feel like there is more to the story.. that would give us more insight on what led to your decisions, and how life maybe was for you. Finding people who can give you support that you not only trust but, also, that you are compatible with.. may be helpful as you look to the road ahead.
The thing is.. most people, if not all people, who seem like they have their life perfectly together either (1) dont actually, or (2) have at least experienced a period (or more) of time where they felt the exact same way.
When the future feels uncertain, and weve already experienced so many obstacles, it can feel extremely stressful to think.. okay. Whats next for me? But its also something else— its brave.
Thank you for sharing part of your story with us today. ♡ Wishing you the best.
Zaat
@zaatarHoney
Your words are generous, thoughtful and kind. I'm new to this --- kind of out of desperation. Not clear exactly how it works, but your reply helps.
@exuberantRaspberries6581 I can relate, and my two cents is to challenge that thought. Sometimes staying alive is all you can do. And I'm very proud of you for making it this far. That's what counts.
@staya1ivef0rme61
That is very kind of you. I'm tough, but this has brought on unexpected stuff. I sincerely appreciate your thoughfulness. Your words help. Hope you are safe and healthy.
@exuberantRaspberries6581 please breathe! It hurts to see that everyone overcomes their problems and you do not, but it is a lie, we are all caught up in internal problems, but we show everyone that this is not the case. You are sincere in saying and feeling that you are not overcoming your problems, it is the first step to do it. Be patient with yourself, there is no "best way or best decision", they are just ways of doing things and there is no wrong decision.
@PauReb
Some time it is hard to breath. This has felt like an economic and health Tsunami being in NYC. But I hear you. Can't tell you how much I appreciate your kindness. Thank you. Please stay safe and healthy.
I am completely new to this forum and have never done this sort of thing before. Hope we can help each other navigate these surreal times. Grateful.
