Social anxiety controlling my life
Im 21, I've dropped out of high school because my social anxiety was so bad I have never had a job because I'm too scared. I can't drive. I barely leave my home. I even get scared to talk to my doctor. I'm not on any anxiety medication because I feel like the ones I took in the past don't work. I used to go to therapy but it wasnt going anywhere. I really don't know what to do. I want to make my own money and be independent, but I feel like no place would hire a high school drop out that can barely talk. I probably look like a terrified little animal to people. Has anyone else had it this bad? Did you improve? I need some hope.
I feel very similar, although I'm not in the same situation, with my social anxiety, and honestly even though it's so much easier said than done, I think you just have to go for it. Therapy never really made me more confident either and I don't think anything else can except doing what scares me. Maybe start with the least anxiety inducing thing right now? Sorry if this isn't helpful.
Honestly, I am jealous of people who can speak their mind off. Here even if I'm writing anything, I'll recheck it again and again before hitting the send button. And I guess the thing that you are here and identified you want to do something about it is first step to liberation. It takes courage to speak up and you need to know you are strong.
Keep trying therapy until you find the right specialist. The right therapist is priceless ! They can really help you navigate the road ahead. Also why don't you study online ? There are a tons of things you can learn online and get certified and improve your employability situation until you are ready to work outside. You can even work online to support yourself.. content creation, translation, design.. data entry..