The seasonal bad feeling is here

Right now I m feeling a bit teary eyed, restless and tired but can`t sleep yet, and when i do get to sleep i sleep for too long. This has been a thing for the last 4 years for me right around autumn-winter holidays. I have been living away from my toxic family circles, witch have been getting a little better, but still i feel pressure to please my parents to meet everyone on holidays, so nobody gets neglected. This is a thing I have already talked with a therapist and i don`t get major anxiety or panic attacks anymore after getting the help to cope with them. But i still get this weighty feeling over me, even though i know i don`t have to go or that i could only meet some of them and it`s frustrating to feel like this.

Also I just bought a daylight simulationlamp for this seasonal sleepyness/sleeplessness and i am very exited to see if it works for me!