Anxiety is controlling my life
So Iv always had very high anxiety..especially as of recently it’s been social. So for a long time Iv been willing to cope. But right now since I’m not in school and just working it’s gotten to the point where I cannot hold a basic conversation. When they ask about my personal life I get afraid of being open about myself and I lie. I hate lying but in the moment I just don’t want them to know about my personal life considering it’s a mess right now. I have no friends and not in school and I just feel like a loser you know? It’s kind of like I’m Ashamed of where I’m at even though Its been a rough couple of years. Most of my coworkers are my age 20ish and I’m just…really sad and angry that I cant talk normally. Like every time I talk I assume that Everyone doesn’t want time there but like..why do I care so much??? They’re coworkers i don’t know it’s so frustrating that I actually care what people think and filter myself to fit in. I hate that I’m so awkward and make people uncomfortable. I can tel I just make people extremely uncomfortable cause of how awkward I am. Please if anyone relates let me know I’m not the only one. It’s so frustrating
@fmgarden
I can definitely relate to you, my life is all about what others will think of me and me trying to be someone they would like. I don't like to lie to people but I do, mostly to avoid some social situations, because I don't want to tell them about my social anxiety. It's so tiring and I can't be myself, not that I know who I really am at this point.
YES THIS THIS THIS. I lie and tell people I have to go somewhere when I really don’t…it’s such a bad habit but thank you for reading my paragraph! I really hope it gets better for the both of us <3
@fmgarden
Sure. Yes its very hard. Recently had some troubles at language school, I skipped the lessons because was too anxious to go and it lead me to schools counselor office, I tried to lie at first some little things why I couldnt come but had to tell them about my anxiety. Crying in school is embarrassing
